All The Smol Things {Prinxiety}

~Pt. 4~

So uhm more triggers.. [TW: Self-harm, PTSD, depression, anxiety, mention of rape, the usual things like that]

{Virgil's POV}

It's 2 a.m. right now and I haven't slept at all. I heard Logan in his room a few hours ago but I think everyone's already asleep now. So maybe I can be in my headspace for a while until I get tired.

I put my paci in my mouth and pull out my sippy cup from under my bed and quietly walk downstairs to get some milk. As I'm pouring the milk, I try to hold back a sneeze, but fail and spill milk all over the floor.

"SHIT!-" I put the milk carton down on the counter and cover my mouth. I hope nobody heard me. I run and grab the mop, quickly mopping up the spilt milk. I return the mop to where it belongs and try to pour it again, this time being successful. I put the carton back in the fridge and turn around, a figure standing in the dark at the bottom of the stairs.

{Roman's POV}

I rub my eyes as I wake up, somehow in my own bed. I could've swore we were watching a movie.. Someone must've taken me up to my room. I roll over, trying to go back to sleep when I hear a loud "SHIT!-" from downstairs.

I groan and get up, going to see what happened. When I finally get to the bottom of the stairs, I see Virgil turn around. He has a pacifier in his mouth and a sippy cup in his hand.. "Virgil..??" I ask.

He just stayed there, almost like he was frozen, until he suddenly bolted past me and up the stairs.

"Virgil!!" I say again and run after him, but he slams his bedroom door in my face and locks it. I knock gently on the door. "Virgil... What's wrong?? Why did you run from me?" I say softly.

No response.. I sigh and knock again.

Still no response.

{Virgil's POV}

Shit fuck shit fuck shit fuck!!! Roman seen me! He's gonna hate me now and think I'm weird! I start to cry as I run into the bathroom connected to my room and rummage around until I find my old blade. I sink to the floor and pull up my sleeves, inspecting my nearly healed arms before ruining it all and digging the blade into my pale skin.

The blood began flowing from the wound and I just kept digging deeper. Every now and then I would hear a knock on the door, but I just ignored it. There's no way I could let anyone know about any of this. I finally stop, the entirety of my arm practically drowned in blood. I just sit there for a bit, staring at it. I haven't done it this bad since...

More tears begin to fall as I'm reminded of the terrible memory, the feeling of them inside me... The way their voice sounded... Their evil laugh... I start to bang my head against the wall, trying to get rid of it.. Just wishing I could end it all right here.

{Roman's POV}

I finally get an idea, pulling a bobby pin from my hair and picking the lock with it. The door clicks open and I run in the room, noticing the bathroom door cracked. I finally realize what Virgil's doing in there.. But why would he do that..? What did I do wrong..? Does this have something to do with him having a pacifier and the sippy cup..?

I try to approach this as calmly as possible until I hear something banging against the wall. That must be Virgil.. What the hell is he doing... I quickly open the door to find Virgil on the floor, covered in blood, and banging his head against the wall. I immediately run over and crouch down next to him, just pulling him close to me. "Shh... Calm down Virgil.. Please..." He immediately melts in my arms, choking out sobs on my shoulder.

I rub his back comfortingly, although I can feel his blood soaking into my clothes. That's gonna be hard to get out later, but I don't even care. It's for someone I lo- care for... Ugh, who am I kidding? I love Virgil with all my heart. I just wanna protect him and keep him safe.

I kiss the top of his head as he starts to finally calm down.. "Virgil...? You wanna tell me what's going on..? It's completely fine if you don't though.." I whisper.

He looks up at me and nods a little, sticking out his pinky. "P-pinky promise chu won't tell anyone..?" He says in the most adorable voice I've ever heard. I smile and nod, interlocking my pinky with his. "Of course.."

He proceeds to tell me about his past, how he was raped and how he uses little space to help cope. I start to feel really bad.. As soon as he's done, I hug him tightly. None of us had any idea of what he was really going through.. I feel so bad for him..

I help him clean up the blood from the bathroom and himself, then dress all his wounds and bring him to my bedroom.

"Gimme a sec.." I say before he comes in, quickly changing out of my bloody clothes and into a white t-shirt and a pair of red boxers.

"Okay come in.." I say and he walks into my room, sitting down on the edge of my bed. I gently toss him one of my old t-shirts.. "Here.. You can change into that instead of your bloody clothes. I face the wall and wait for him to finish.

When he tells me I can turn around, he's in my t-shirt and his own purple boxers. I smile brightly.. God, he's so adorable.. I pause and walk out of the room and quickly come back with Virgil's sippy cup, his pacifier, and his stuffed kitten.

"There you go sweetheart.." He gasps happily as I hand him his things. He drinks the rest of his milk and puts the paci in his mouth, hugging onto his stuffed animal. I smile more and lay down on the bed.

"Do you wanna cuddle with me tonight sweetie..?" I ask and he squeaks and nods in response, cuddling up close to me, his stuffed kitten in between us and his paci still in his mouth.

Before long, Virgil is in my arms, softly snoring. I wish I could call this little cutie mine.. But he would probably never love me. I gently sigh and soon fall asleep as well.

What's this?? 2 parts in one day? I'm kinda proud of myself 😅 But anyways 1120 words so that's a pretty decent amount, right? Aaaanyways, until next time guys, gals, and nonbinary pals!
~Logan✌