Secrets{m.g.c}

four.

*Warning-May trigger selfharm so if need skip this chapter because I don't want anyone triggered!*

*Ashlynn's P.O.V*

Why is he doing this? We are laying on a blanket listen to green day and looking at the stars. This is a dream that I don't want to wake up from. I want to stay in it forever.

Out of the corner of my eye I see my car pull up and Ashton and Calum get out. They are carrying bags from hot topic and other places.

"Well we went shopping for you and bought all of this! and Holland keeps blowing up your phone!" Ashton says as they walk up the hill.

I grab my phone out of his hand. I have 27 texts and 12 missed calls for holland. What is so important?

I turn my phone on silent because I don't want to deal with her right now; not after our fight the other day.

She was talking shit about Michael and how he just a heartbreaker that's no good for me. I was pretty mad after she said that. I call Ashton that night in tears. Ashton and I have always been close. I knew him before anyone else did.

He told me to take a break from holland for a while. I hope he is right because taking a break from my best friend is hard.

Calum hands me bags from all these stores. I go though the bags as the guys talk about something I don't know about. I like what the bought being its nothing but band T-shirts and CDs which it what I would have bought.

I get on my phone read though Facebook and stuff. I want to go home and cry or something worse. I can't to do what I want to do. I want Luke to leave the house with the guys and I want lock my self in my bathroom With a fresh blade, but I can't do that.

"Can we go home? You take luke to your house or something because I need to think and with him there I will tell him everything." I say look at the 3 guys hoping they won't see though my lie. "okay!" Ashton and calum say at the same time but Michael just looks at me. He knows about the self harming because he found me on my bathroom. I've been clean since then, That was 9 months ago.

He grabs my hand as we walk back to the car a few feet behind Cal and Ash. He stops me and looks in to my eyes, not looking contact he says,"Don't do it, Ashlynn.." I don't have the power to say anything back to him but to shake my head. I grab my keys and get in the car. I turn the all time low cd in the radio on full volume, trying to drown out my own thoughts.

We get the apartment and find luke playing video games in my living room.

"Hey luke, can you go to Cal's house and play video games with the guys. I don't want to listen to the four of you yelling and screaming?" "Yeah we will, ashlynn." he say as I walk into my room. I put all of the bags on my bed and change into sweats and one of Luke's shirt that I stole from him. I put my hair into a bun and walk down stairs. They are about to leave.

"Who's house are you going?" "Ashton's. It's just going to be me,ash and cal. Michael said he had something he had to do." "Okay. Text me when you are on the way home, love you!" I say as he walks out of the door.

After I know he is gone, I go into his bathroom and grab a fresh razor from the counter then walk to my bathroom. I close to the door and take the razor apart. I hold 6 blades and bandaids in my hand. I turn my wrist over and drag a blade across my skin, making blood drip down my arm, just like the tears running down my face.

The bathroom door swings open and Mikey is standing in the doorway. He doesn't say a thing, he just takes the blade out of my hands and flushes them. He helps me up off the ground and cleans the cuts. I silently cry.

He takes me into his arms, making me cry harder.

"Ashlynn, I don't want you to do this to yourself." "Michael, I can't do this." "Yes you can and I'll do it with you" "I love you." "I love you too." He gets more perfect with every secret he find out...