The Days With No Sun

Go Easy On Me ~ Final

Please don't be so hard on my heart.
I need to grow in a way where I can let go.
Help me realize, as a final work of art, these are my last words.

Sometimes I don't know what to do.
Give me space.
Be patient with my soul, I need room to grow.
For me life is hard, things are cruel.

If I was a lilac, I'd be a bud of flowers.
There's layers to me like an onion.
I have spilt personalities for every occasion.
Go easy on my mind.

If my mother needed me, I'd run.
If my father needed me, I'd walk.
Time changes for certain people.
My heart and head don't connect the same.

When the light was green, I still acted yellow.
Go easy on me.
I lived a life I refuse to give my future family.
They say "love don't change" but that's a lie.

The variables that make up a person, also make up their future, regardless of what you've been told otherwise.
People act how they want to towards you or anyone they encounter.

Life gives lemons for a reason.
Not everyone makes lemon aid.
Some people eat lemons straight.
Some people use the lemons to grow lemon trees.
There's a scenario for everyone.
Who are you?

Go easy on me.
I know too many things I shouldn't know.
Seen too many things I shouldn't have.
Lived to many lives to remember.
Love to many people who didn't love me back.

My heart is broken, in ways, you probably couldn't imagine.
Wishing bad karma will only bring it to you.
The signs all lead to death regardless of the road you take.
In other words, live.

Don't put a limit on your voice.
Go easy on me.
I spoke words that should never be spoken.
Heard voices I wasn't supposed to.

Scars on my body that tell stories.
Lies in my mind.
Hurt in my heart.
Go easy on me.

I've had candy sweeter than you,
Spices with more flavor,
Rainbows with more color,
Jobs with more interest.

Go easy on my soul, it's older than you know.
I'm a delicate person and I need to grow.
My attic is crazy cluttered with emotions.
I'm terrified you'll see me differently.

I'd let you in but you wouldn't understand.
We live opposite lives.
Even if I could voice the words to explain this to you, you still wouldn't know.
I want you to go easy on me.

I asked for help too many times.
Been turned down for too many lies.
My phone stays charged longer than I do.
If I prayed will it help?

If I preach to you, what I hope you keep between us, how will you know me better?
Will you look at me differently?
I know you would.

Drowning was more exciting than living.
At least then I knew I could save myself.
Now I'm not so sure.
Go easy on me.

I can say more in one word than a million poems.
But pictures speak louder don't they?
Or so they say.
Suicidal.
Depressed.
Easy.

Go
Easy
On
Me.

I found you in my heart.
What were you doing there?
Tampering again?
Tsk, tsk.
You've wounded me again.

My heart isn't a toy.
My head isn't either.
I don't need more broken pieces to stitch.
Mind your manners.

If it's not yours don't touch it.
Ask first.
Please and thank you.
Mother, may I?

Go easy on me.
I've lost a few petals that held me together.
The sanity, it fades daily.
Almost like a sunset.

A dog barking in the distance.
But who brought him?
Insanity or humanity?
Kindness maybe?

The correct equation was still wrong.
The kitten played in the fishbowl,
The jellyfish still stung,
And your lips were still sparking.

Go easy on me.
She still texts you,
And beauty was trapped.
The roses still grew despite their conditions.

The children cry, they grew up to fast.
I was sick of the mirror.
You should be too.
When?
Now.

The clouds brought rain.
It bloomed pink sunrises.
Go easy on me.
I'm full of surprises.

The dreams turned nightmares.
If...
Pencil met paper making this poem and original.
But the homicides still reside.
His coffin still 6 feet under.

The hues changed,
And the M&Ms went bad.
I don't know.
One two many people hideaway.

Go easy on me.
My old friends aren't my friends anymore.
The scorpion broke out of the lollipop,
And his hair is gone.

The happiness I thought I had was broken by mistrust.
I'd ask again why I love you but I don't think I'd get past the tears.
If you go easy on me,
You could help me form and new life.

Go easy on me.
3 years ago,
I had (almost) everything.
Today,
I have next to nothing.

Go Easy On Me.

~~~

The days with no sun,
Where the most beautiful days of my life.
The everlasting darkness that encased me, forcing the stars to shine on my body, brought me more joy then you could ever imagine.
Glowing like the moon, I began to realize,
It isn't over yet.

The madness continues.
Go easy on me.

I'll see you on the other side.

<3

Part 2,
Coming soon.

Read on loves.

Picture above is me, the author of
The Days With No Sun,

hello-no-one.