I Am

New School

a day before school starts...

I felt my stomach twisting and turning because I knew school would be starting tomorrow. I'm already going to finish middle school this year and soon I'll be in high school. My mom has always liked to plan ahead so everything we needed for school was already bought about a month ago.

My brother Oscar had already made many friends with some of the kids in the neighborhood this summer. They always come knock at our door asking for him to come out and play. Too bad thats going to come to an end since he also starts school tomorrow.

And I....I haven't been outside at all. I just stay at home and draw and watch tv all day. Sometimes I would look after Edwin when my mom was busy doing something else. Edwin is lucky that he's still three years old and doesn't have to go to to school yet. Also I'm starting to realize that Edwin doesn't talk much and he doesn't throw tantrums either. He's like the total opposite of Oscar.

Edwin and I were watching cartoons when my mom came into the living room looking somewhat stressed.

"Do you have everything for school tomorrow?"

"Yes"

"Ok...now where is Oscar?"

"Outside with his friends?"

"Ese niño!...I told him I didn't want him to be leaving without my permission!"

I was starting to cover Edwins poor ears. Edwin just looked at me with confusion. Soon after I saw my mom opening the front door probably going outside to look for Oscar to drag his ass back home. I finally uncovered Edwins ears so he could focus on the tv again.

"I'm hungry"

Edwin already knows to say that to me when mom isn't around because he knows i'll give him something that's probably unhealthy for him. But c'mon now this is Edwin we're talking about. I could never say no to him.

"Alright let's go get you something."

Edwin was ready to fall asleep so I carried him in my arms and put him into his bed and left the room.

I went back to my room not knowing what to do next. I start to remember about Daisy. I don't know what happened to her on the day I was moving but she never showed up to say goodbye. She actually lived nearby the house so she could have easily just walked there but she didn't. The last thing we talked about was about how her dad has a better job now. My mom told me that she has seen her with her mom a couple of times now. She also told me that they weren't the same people like before. I've also told my mom that I wanted to see Daisy a couple of times now but my mom would always said, "Are you sure?".

have you really changed that much?

I felt myself getting sleepy by thinking about that question over and over again.

First day of school...

4:38 a.m.

I felt so nervous that I woke up way too early for school. All I kept thinking about was the different scenarios that could happen today.

5:23 a.m.

I couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to get up and choose what i'll be wearing for today.

6:07 a.m.

I'm starting to pray to all the gods that exist hoping that they'll let me have ONE peaceful day.

6:30 a.m.

Oscar and I walk to the bus stop. We wait there for 7 whole minutes when finally the bus arrives. It then took us another few minutes to finally get to the school. The amount of kids that were around the school overwhelmed me. I quickly had to find my classroom so I wouldn't be late.

Room 203...

I finally made it to the classroom before the bell could ring. I took the seat that was all the way in the back corner so nobody would notice me.

"Welcome and congratulations. This is your last year of middle school and soon you'll be high school freshman. I'm Mr.Smith and each day you guys will meet here before school starts and before lunch. When you guys go to lunch we want you to sit with your own classroom only."

"Any questions?"

Not one soul raised their hand everyone looked like they didn't want to be here in the first place.

"Ooh I almost forgot we have a student that is new to the school....would you like to introduce yourself?"

Maybe I shouldn't have prayed to multiple gods in one day? I felt like my heart stopped beating. Everyone started to stare at me like I was some type of animal in display.

"Umm....I-I'm Celine Martinez."

Everyone who was starring at me now looked away. I know they didn't care who I was anymore which made me glad.

Three days later...

I haven't talked to anyone since I've been here but there are some girls I would talk to from time to time. I kept on thinking they were weird since they would always sing the same song everyday from a cartoon called Sailor Moon. Now that I hang out with these girls I hardly ever think about Daisy anymore.

I was going to get my lunch and sit at the same table with the rest of my classmates. I always mind my own business when I'm sitting with them. I just eat my lunch and go to the library after i'm finished. But today the library was closed for some reason. So all I could do was just sit and wait until lunch was over. I then started to feel really uncomfortable like someone was starring at me. It turns out the person that was starring was actually the guy that was sitting too close to me.

Waaaaayy tooo close