You're One In A Million

NINE

Have you listen the song, "THE DOCTOR SAID BY CHLOE ADAMS" 

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Few days later

She lost her father, who was her only asset left in her life..  Her eyes were still wet with salty waters. She had left nothing but tears, she was feeling lonely.

 Zara burying her face in the pillow was all alone in her room and murmured in the lowest possible sound, "The funeral is over, everyone has gone home. It's just me and my thoughts , my thoughts * it's killing me. I feel you when I close my eyes. I'm sitting here alone."

She got up and entered her Baba's room which seems so quite and empty. The clothes  he left, they were lying on his bed. They smell just like him. She could smell his fragrance in his room . She rest her head on his Baba's pillow and started crying all over again. She murmured , "I hear you walking through the halls. But I know you're not home. The thought of you is all that remains in my heart Baba."

Tears on my pillow, 

I can't count how many I've cried.

I feel so awfully hollow,

Almost like it's me that died.

Depression is like drowning. Except you can see everyone else around you breathing.She was drowning in depression. Everyone was worried about Zara's condition. The trauma she had faced in the past was a devastating tragedy. Uncle Akber took care of Zara, when she was suffering from depression and anxiety. He took appointments from the doctors just to make her feel better.

Depression is oppression. It's a deadly hidden message
Defined by self-hate.

Zara stopped eating anything. She was becoming weaker. But Uncle Akber able to make sure to pull out Zara from depression. She kept herself locked in her father's room. She pulled the  caramel colored curtains of her father's room gently and starred at the night sky which  was filled with the stars all around. 

"I know you can hear me Baba. Way up in heaven, because we talk through our hearts.Dear Baba in heaven, I miss you every single day and I know you miss me too." She thought while looking at the stars in the night. She was herself a doctor but could not help herself in depression. Because she was inconsolable , her soul was in grief. Her pain was deeper. Uncle Akber made appointment and was sure that Zara would be able to take herself out of it. 

    Depression is feeling dead but not being able to die.

Have you listen the song, "THE DOCTOR SAID BY CHLOE ADAMS"

I'll be lost inside my head
Bad thoughts 'till four am
Then I'll try to sleepAnd I can't tell everyone
I'm so scared they'll get up and run
So I don't speakAnd oh, I miss when we were younger
The days were so much funner
Weren't they?Oh, I book a new appointment
It's another disappointment
They're all the same, same, sameWhen the doctor says I'm fine
One at morning, one at night
These pill will help you remember how to smile
But what does he know?
'Cause I feel so alone
And mom and dad both tell me I'm alright
'Cause the doctor said you're fineMy own mind can lie to me
They all say it's anxiety
But I just think it's meNow I've lost so many years
My pillow's a tissue for my tears
But you never seeAnd now, I can't even eat my dinner
Mom says I'm getting thinner
Am I?Oh, I book a new appointment
Yet another disappointment
They're all the same, same, sameWhen the doctor says I'm fine
One at morning, one at night
These pill will help you remember how to smile
But what does he know?
'Cause I feel so alone
And mom and dad both tell me I'm alright
'Cause the doctor said you're fineBut he don't care about me
He'll just go home to his family
Why does no one see?
I'm not the girl I wish that I could be'Cause the doctor said I'm fine
One at morning, one at night
These pill will help you remember how to smile
But what does he know?
'Cause I feel so alone
And mom and dad both tell me I'm alright
'Cause the doctor said I'm fine