(f.s.t;l)

-[2]-|pain-pleasure|-

Pain,
a word everyone think of differently; some see it as pleasure, while some fears it...

Sadistic you may say to the people who finds it pleasurable. But I do, I find pleasure in pain; but on my own mind and body.

It brings me pleasure, the thought of hurting myself...killing myself. I suffocate myself in my own darkness; it haunts me down but I fought against it.

Never again will I give in too that part of me. Because it made my hell-liked life; way more miserable i've ever wished it to be...
it was painful but it yet gave me pleasure