D I A N A
5 hours ago
I was doing my make up when I heard the bedroom's door open cautiously.
It was followed by soft and nearly silent footsteps so I stopped to look at the culprit's reflection on the mirror in front of me.
It was Franki.
She was still in her polka dots dress, so I guess, hindi pa ito nakaka-ligo because it's her pambahay.
Gusto kong mag-reklamo kasi malelate na nga kami yet hindi pa sya nakaka-ligo,
but I decided not to because it's gonna be a long-ass argument again.
Yes. Again.
Lately kasi, nawawala na yung synchronicity naming dalawa.
Franki hesitantly looked me in the eyes as if she wanted to say something.
"What?" I asked.
"Are we..." She nervously played with her fingers and "--Are we still on the same page, Diana?"
Here we go again. Tsk.
I decided to continue my makeup instead of meeting her brown eyes with mine. "What do you mean?"
I heard her scoffed. "You know what I mean, Diana."
She was right, alam ko.
It was us, our feelings, our mutual feelings na ngayo'y lumalabo.
It'd been seven months since nakalabas kami sa bahay ni kuya and three months nung nagkaroon kami ng confessions sa isa't isa.
I still remember how confident I was nung inamin ko na may feelings ako for her and how I assured her na kaya ko syang ipag-laban sa mundong mapang-husga.
Yet, naandito ako ngayon...
Confused and wondering kung nadala lang ba ako sa pang-aasar ng fans noon?
Ayoko sa confrontation so I did the thing kung saan ako magaling: mag-galit-galitan para talikuran ang sitwasyon.
"Let's not talk about this right now Franki, malelate na tayo."
I stood up and walked past her fragile heart,
It broke my heart seeing her like that.
Franki wasn't the kind of person na mabilis magpakita ng emosyon.
Hanggang bearable pa ang sakit for her ay itinatago nya ito sa likod ng mga ngiti nya.
And it only means one thing pag inilabas na nya ito... Sobrang sakit na for her.
She had her broken heart in her hands right now, waiting for me to glue it together by simply saying something, yet I refused to even look at it and I blatantly looked at the front door pa for an exit.
How could I be so cruel for my goals sometimes?
I was about to exit the room when
"Are you gonna stick with Sky the whole day again?" her trembling voice stopped me.
I faced her.
"We already talked about this Franki diba? Para rin to sa careers natin... It's a good thing na nga that the management agreed to make us a trio so you can still join us... Besides, we get to have free rides na rin because Sky can pick us up without conflicts and creating any dramas... Just look on the brighter side, okay?" I tried to give her the best comforting words that I could afford right now.
"Yeah, being the 'third wheel' is fun"
She sarcastically said.
Naiintindihan ko sya, her pain,
alam ko yun.
But it was so suffocating that I needed my escape.
"Don't you dare start with me Franki. I thought you understand our situation?!"
She flinched at my tone. But still, as understanding as ever, she answered me in her softest voice.
"I do, but how long do I have to endure this? How long do I need to just understand?"
And at that moment, I wanted to hug her, tell her how beautiful she is that I do not deserve her, and how everything is going to be just fine.
But before I could do that, my phone buzzed in my pocket.
"Sky's waiting, we should go now," I told her after I read Sky's message.
"I'm getting tired of this Diana." my dearest Franki blurted out.
No.
Has she given up on me?
I can't, I can't breathe.
"You're tired? Then let's call it quits, I've had enough dealing with you that in fact, you're becoming a bother to me these days." I slammed the door right in her face.
Before I realized what I had just said and done, I was already a few steps down to where Sky usually parked his car.
"Where's Fran---Woah... What happened? Are you okay?" Sky asked as I wore the seatbelt.
That was when I realized that I was crying na pala. Dapat pala hindi nalang ako nag-makeup.
"Yah, j--just...Just drive Sky, mag-ga-grab nalang daw si Franki." I said as I wept my tears away and I was glad na sky decided to follow nalang.
What had I done?
Franki held her heart out in front of me and showed me how broken it was, yet I left her and let those broken pieces to wound her soft and innocent palms.
I'm gonna fix this Franki
I'm gonna fix this,
When we get home I'll fix this agad,
I swear.
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Wow, ang sipag ko ngayon, ang haba. 🙈
-Bella
