Howl Of The Moon (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 8: Safe

Chapter 8: Safe

I didn't get one ounce of sleep last night. I kept thinking of Zion the whole night. And because of that I kept on crying. Those memories brought on a lot of feelings. Mostly it brought up was sadness and how I missed him.

But while I was getting ready for school today I kept on telling myself, "You can do this. One day at a time." My sister kept checking in on me this morning. I guess she most of heard me crying last night.

I kept having to reassure her and myself that I was okay. Sadly only one person believed that. And it wasn't me. I was just about done encouraging myself when my mother called me and my sister down for breakfast. I headed down for breakfast trying to keep focus on anything but Zion. Since I didn't feel like talking and my sister knew that breakfast was really quite.

My mom kept giving us weird glances sensing something was wrong but she never asked us anything. Today me and my sister where walking to school my mom had an important meeting she had to get to so she didn't have time to take us.

Just like breakfast the walk to school was quite. We reached school grounds in no time. "Hey I am going to go find my friends you going to be okay?" my sister asked when we reached the front of the school.

"Yeah I will be fine don't worry." I said to reassure her. At first it didn't look like she believed me but she decided to not pester me and just nodded her head and walked away.

I was entering the school when I was being forcefully dragged through the halls to an empty classroom. I was pushed inside the classroom and when I turned around the door was being closed by my best friend Alice.

"Is it true? Tell me Jaden is it true?"

"Is what true? What are you talking about?" I asked looking at her with so much confusion.

"Its all around the school Jaden,tell me is it true?" Alice asked me again. I looked into her eyes and I can see so much worry, and fear.

"What are you talking about? What is all around the school?"

"Clearly I guess you don't know. Jaden everyone believes that you're gay. Is it true?" Alice asked once again.

I felt like the blood from my body just went out of it. My mind totally just froze. It's like I couldn't believe what was happening. The whole school knows my secret. Is this a horrible nightmare I am in. I was so scared of what might happen.

I don't know what to do. Do I tell the truth or do I deny it all. Do I take the side of secrets and stay in the shadows. Or do I take bravery and confess it all. Can I even keep up this charade.

And if I choose truth can I face all my fears. Can I take all the hatred I will receive, the mocks , the stares. I don't know what made me decide my next step in life but I did. I told Alice, I told her the truth. I told her everything from Angelo's rejection till now. But I did not tell her of Zion that I had no clue how to tell.

After I said everything I had to say I just waited for her response. While she was in her own thoughts I looked at her face maybe i could read how she feels about everything. I wasn't quite sure how she was feeling but the thing I did see in her  eyes was worry. It seemed like a century before she responded but what she did next totally took me by surprised. She just hugged me.

"Jaden why didn't you tell me?" she asked taking me again by surprised with her reaction. I was suspecting something worse but not this.

I gave her the only answer I could give her, " I was scared. I was afraid you might hate me and react the same way Angelo did."

"Jaden look at me." she said while grabbing my face and making me look at her. "I could never hate you for who you choose to love. You are my best friend Jaden. I will always love you no matter what. And Angelo don't worry about that prick he has no clue on how much he lost giving up you. Jaden you are the most wonderful person I have ever meet."