Its been 2 weeks since I've moved to Australia , and everyday it feels like Im falling deeper and deeper into a very deep deppresion . Tomorrow's my dads birthday and it hurts so bad . I just wanna let the pain out , but I havent cut in 2 months and I dont want to relapse but my thighs are itching for it . I havent been to school in 3 days . I havent even eatin in 2 days . I have nobody . I dont even know who I am anymore . I get out of bed and go to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror . I look dead , I have bags under my eyes and Im so pale . I hate myself so much I just want to end it . Just like my dad did but I wont . I go back to lay down and listen to music . After getting in bed I put my earphones in and drift off to sleep .
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( Lukes POV * suprise mudafucka * )
Todays Friday and I havent seen Lauryn in 3 days . Im kinda worried about her becuase the last time I saw her she didnt even talk to me . She just ran out of class crying . I want to go by her house and make sure shes okay . I get in the shower and get dressed and head off to school and after I'll go check on her .
( After School )
Today was a long day . I couldnt stop thinking about Lauryn . I get in my car and head to her house .
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( Lauryns POV )
I wake up to the feeling of my bed dipping down like somebody got in it . I look up and see Luke , Is this a dream ?
" What are you doing here ? " I probly sounded like a bitch but oh well .
" I just came to check on you , you havent been at school for 3 days " He gives me a sorry look .
" Why does it matter ?" I spat . He's starting to piss me off .
" Becuase , I wanna be there for my friends . Last time I saw you , you ran out the class crying "
" Dont you see Luke ? Im broken ! I have nobody . I hate myself , I hate every fuckin thing about me ! I just want to end it all ! I mean look at me Im pittyful and I look awful ! " By now Im sobbing . I get up and go to my make-up stand .
" HERE I'LL BRUSH MY HAIR , DO I LOOK PERFECT NOW ? " I throw the brush at the wall and it breaks . Luke slowly gets up and walks towards me . He takes his thumbs and wipes my tears away , And looks me in the eyes .
" Its okay not to be okay , Sometimes its hard to follow your heart . Tears dont mean your losing , Everybodys bruising , Just be true to who you are . And your beautiful so dont ever say that shit ! And your not alone . Never . You have me , And you can bett your ass I'll always be here for you . I promise ." He leans down and kisses my cheek sweetly . I engulf him in a hug and begin to sob even more .
" Thank you Luke , Your not like I'd thought you'd be " I squeeze him tighter hoping he wont leave me like he promised .
A/N YEA IK THIS CHAPTERS SHORT BUT I PROMISE TO MAKE IT UP TO YALL ! AND I WAS LISTENING TO WHO YOU ARE BY JESSIE J WHILE WRITING THIS CHAPTER SO YEA AHA . BUT COMMENT AND VOTE AND IM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME AWHILE TO UPDATE BUT ILY ALL ♥♥♥ - LAURYN ♥
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Worthless | Luke Hemmings
FanfictionWorthless ... The only word she ever considered true about herself . She closed off the world , She knew it was all in vain . She promised herself to never love again . But promises were meant to be broken . Right ?
