Worthless | Luke Hemmings

Chapter 6

( WARNING THAT THIS CHAPTER IS VERY TRIGGERING ! )

Lauryns P.O.V

Lately luke has been really distint . I haven't gotten a text , phone call , or a visit from him in 5 days . Were on Christmas break now and I'm glad I'm able to get a break from school and all the drama .

I just got out of the shower and now I'm putting on some clothes to go to Luke's house and see whats up with him . Im wearing some leggings and a Nirvana muscle tee . I grab my car keys and head out the door . Once I get in the car I plug my phone in and play Disaterology by Pierce The Veil ( MY JAMM YASSSSS ) and make my way to Luke's house .

When I get there I go up to the door and knock , Moments later Liz comes to the door.

" Lauryn , whats a suprise ! Nice to see you " She greets me with a hug and warm smile . " Luke is upstairs in his bedroom "

" Okay thank you " I smile .

I make my way upstairs and to luke's door . I see that its cracked open a little and notice a blonde haired chick is in his room sitting in his lap and their eating each others face  . I get a familiar feeling of hurt and to be completely fucking honest , it does hurt seeing luke with another girl ,  even though were not dating . He shows me signs that he likes me all the time , so what do you expect ? I'm scared to fall for him becuase I know I'll only get hurt .

I feel tears run down my cheeks and I run down stairs out of the door . I get in my car and speed home hoping I wreck and end all the pain , everythings fucking meaningless anyway. By now my blood is boiling becuase Im really fucking pissed. I get home and run to the bathroom looking at my razors debating on if I should let the pain out or not . To me my razors are my bestfriend . I take one and bring it to my thighs and slice one by one . 2 ,3 ,4 ,5 ,6 ,7, 8 ,9 ,10 times and I finally stop . I let the water caress my thighs and watch the blood run down the drain .' I deserve this ' I thought to myself ' Im fucking  worthless and a waste of air ' the thoughts continued as I sobbed to myself . After what I longed for stopped bleeding I put my pajamas on and went to bed thinking to myself that Im so fucking done with Luke Robert Hemmings .

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