Welcome to the jungle

6. Cancún

June 29th, 1989
I stormed into my room and slammed the door. What a prick, three months for what? And with her, are you shitting me? She was the type of girl who would fuck and tell everyone, including their girlfriend. Does the universe hate me or something? I just got fucking fired for Christ sake. Why was this happening to me? I lost my job, apartment and boyfriend in one day.

Jada came running into the apartment shouting for me I opened my door and ran up to her for a hug and she took me in with open arms. "Im so sorry. He's a pig, and that girl, my god she was a bitch," she said in an angry comforting voice. "I know," I exclaimed as I started to sob. It just hit me I lost my job apartment and boyfriend in one day. I lost Jacob. How could he humiliate me like that? I never showed my emotions but I did in this moment I needed to let it out.

We sat there while I cried and ranted about him for half and hour before everyone else came home. I guess they wanted to give me a minute but I'd kind of taken them out of the partying mood. It was 3am to be fair. Eventually they came home and joined us in the living room. Thankfully I gotten my cry out and just sitting there with smudged makeup and frustration boiling up inside me.

"Hi," Duff said in a sympathetic voice as he and everyone else entered the room. "How are you holding up?" Steven questioned as he sat beside me spitting me on my shoulder. "Me? Oh I'm fine, I'm just trying not go punch someone," I replied acting angry instead of showing my sadness. They could tell I've been crying but I wasn't about to let them see me fall apart, especially not Axl. I only cry in front of Jada and into my pillow.

"Life's a bitch, then it gives you a glimpse of happiness. Then it's a bitch again," I complained while I fiddled with the bottom of my t shirt. Everyone nodded in agreement. "It's too easy to get lost in an everyday struggle of trying to find happiness and romance that we lose natural opportunities to find it which is the best way to find it. If you stop looking you'll probably find it." Izzy proclaimed as he stared into the ground, he didn't speak too often but when he did, no matter what it was, it was gold. "Most people don't realize that what they're looking for is closer than they think," as Izzy finished explaining his philosophy we all stared at him in wonder. Axl was looking at me in deep thought but when he saw me notice he looked away immediately, "dude, that was some deep shit," slash said with an open mouth. Izzy just leaned back taking a puff of his fag looking at the ceiling as we all realized he probably wasn't gonna speak for another while.

"I just need a break from my life, two weeks even just one. I need a second to step out of my mind and get fucked up and forget all of my problems. My unemployment, my living situation, my relationship status, my acting career that is currently as thriving as my love life. I need a break from it all." I just let my thoughts flow out without showing emotion. Being open with people was never a problem for me, showing my emotional vulnerability was not on the cards. I didn't want people to think bad of me.

"You know what, that's the best idea I've heard in a long time," Axl said. "I'm fucking wrecked from tour I want a break too, I want a holiday." I wasn't actually being literal about it but when I thought about it I did need a break. Well even if I didn't need one, I fucking wanted one. "I'm fucking down," slash added. "Same I'm so up for a two week bender in Cancún," Amanda stated as Mariana nodded in agreement. "Lets fucking do it," Jada exclaimed "life's been shit for us girls lately, and you guys deserve a break after being on the road for so long, let's go to Cancún for two weeks."

And then it was done. We were going to Cancún on a two week bender. Jada and I couldn't afford the trip so Duff and Steven chipped in to help us, you can guess who helped who. I started packing the next day, I was planning on getting a lot of action, I wasn't gonna let Jacob get in the way of my fun, he didn't deserve my tears. I packed a lot of lingerie, bikinis, hot pants and bralets. I was ready to get out there and I had the burning desire to make Axl jealous. I do not like him though. I'll speak it into existence.

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June 1st, 1989
My summer of '89 was about to start and I was gonna grab it by the balls. Jada, Amanda, Mariana, Axl, Duff, Slash, Izzy, Steven, and I met at lax at 7:30 am ready to start this banger of a holiday although you wouldn't have guessed it. Everyone was groggy and tired but that was gonna change as soon as we got to the duty free booze. Izzy brought this girl called Sadie who he was trying to get with. I wore high waisted sweats pants that showed off my hips and a white t shirt that I tucked into my bra so it looked cropped.

I wore my hair down with my black yankees baseball hat on. I didn't bother with makeup.

We landed in Cancún and as soon as we got our get on the ground we started drinking. Literally, slash downed half a Jack Daniels. We hired two cars so we could get to the villa we were staying in without having to be in an awkward taxi journey for an hour and a half. Jada and Steven wanted to be in a car with each other and so did Duff and Mariana, Amanda joined them. That left me with Izzy, slash, Sadie and Axl. I couldn't make up my mind whether I was happy or pissed about it. I mean ya I would get to be next to Axl for an hour and a hour but, I would have to be next to Axl for and an hour a half.

Izzy rented the car so he was driving and a drunk slash insisted on being in the front. That left Axl, Sadie and I in the back. "Jordan, make sure you get the middle," Axl whispered to me. "Em, sure why?" I asked secretly hoping it was because he wanted to sit next me. My heart went mad again. My face showed nothing. "I don't want to sit next to Sadie," he replied. I thought it was odd but I didn't want to pry while Sadie would be able to hear us.

We set off and Slash was blasting pour some sugar on me by Def Leppard. "Oh my god, it's hot in this car," Sadie announced. Her voice was a classic valley girl, I could tell we weren't going to get on, especially when she took of her shirt revealing her bra. The ac was on high so the car wasn't warm in the slightest. "Okayyyyy," I murmured to myself as I looked the other way to Axl where I noticed him roll his eyes. "Do you have a problem with me getting comfortable?" Sadie asked me in a confronting tone. "I don't know, should I?" I replied. I've dealt with girls like Sadie many times, she's the type that puts other girls down and makes a fool of herself just to get attention from guys. This made me see straight through her and I wasn't about to take any of her shit. "If you want to show your tits off to every guy you meet, be my guest, but don't expect me to comfortable around you when you do it." Slash sniggered "ohhh shit, I can feel a girl fight coming on." I laughed at his remark as Sadie rolled her eyes and put her shirt back on.

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We arrived at Casa Blanca the villa we were staying in and everyone went to find a room. Jada came up to me just before we all got inside and explained "Jordan, listen I'm so sorry to ditch you but I really really want to stay with Steven and he offered. If you'd rather share a room with me thought I'll tell him I can't." Of course I was not going to get in the way of Jada getting closer to Steven. They looked so cute together and I didn't even mind that much anyway. "Omg, you have to. That's the perfect opportunity to get a little closer to him if you know what I mean," I winked at her. "Thank you so much, I knew you'd understand," she squealed while hugging me.

Izzy and Duff, Amanda and Mariana, Axl and Slash, and of course Steven and Jada were all sharing so that just left, shit. I would have to share with fucking Sadie. This was not going to end well.