Just Stay (Phan Fiction)

Drunk Again

Dan's POV

After returning home, Chris and Pj put on some movies and we all sat on the sofa to watch them. I hadn't spoken since in the bathroom with Phil but none of us have really had much to talk about. When the movie was over, I noticed that Chris and Pj had fallen asleep on the sofa in each others arms. Feeling a little uncomfortable, I went to the kitchen and grabbed a beer. You know what? Fuck it, I'm getting drunk tonight. For once, I am going to shut off my brain and escape these thoughts that kept pulling me in. I'm going to take a break from my wonderland as Phil had put it. 

Grabbing quite a bit of drink, I headed to my room, put some music on and drank. And drank. And drank. My phone buzzed and I turned off the music as I slumped into my desk chair, pulling out my phone.

Hey baby, I'm at the hotel now. Go on Skype honey xxx ~Phil

I pulled over my laptop and picked up when Phil called me. I couldn't think properly. But it hit me, I didn't want him to see me like this. I didn't want to be such a mess after only a few hours. God, I was a mess. I horrible, disgusting mess. Why does Phil even put up with me? I'm disgusting and needy and pathetic and-

"Dan?" Phil asked from the computer in a worried voice and I turned my attention back to him. He was blurry and my head was spinning but I tried to concentrate on the one person that mattered right now.

Phil's POV

After the long plane ride, we were finally in Spain. It was extremely hot but quite late at night here so we made our way swiftly to the hotel. Once there, we were told to take the night to rest. Some of the guys were going to the pub in the hotel but I went straight to my room and opened up my laptop. I sent Dan a quick text before Skyping him. It rang for only a little while before he picked up. My heart jumped in my chest but then I saw him. Really saw him. His eyes were bloodshot and dull, all life gone. His cheeks were rosy and his hair was hung messily over his face. He was swaying slightly as his unfocused eyes looked at me. Or computer me.

"Dan?" I questioned.

"Mmh?" he replied in a daze.

"Are- are you drunk?" I asked.

He nodded.

"Teensy bit." he giggled before taking a large gulp from a bottle of beer in his hand.

"Dan." I sighed. He wasn't handling this well. "Dan, I thought you were having Chris and Pj stay over?" I questioned.

"Sshhhh." he whispered loudly, leaning towards his laptop. "They told me to sleep. They're in the front room."

"Do they know you're like this?" I asked.

He shook his head. "They're sleeping." he said, raising a finger to his lips. He then let his arm fall loosely to his side. "Lion?"

"Yes?" I questioned.

"I don't want to be drunk." he said like a child and my eyes filled with sympathy.

"Why don't you go to sleep, baby?" I asked gently.

"You're not here." he said bluntly. "And- and I'm in wonderland, Phil." he admitted, sticking to my Alice in Wonderland reference. "I don't know how to get out." he whispered the last part.

"Dan, love, just go get a glass of water and try to get some sleep. Maybe Chris and Pj can stay in the room with you. I'm sure they won't mind." I told him.

"B-but they're cuddling. I don't want to disturb them. Phiiiilllll!!" he whined. "I want youuuu Philly."

"I'm sorry, love." I murmered, looking down sadly.

"No, no don't apologise." he said quickly. "Don't be sad, lion. Look, I'll go to bed and I'll talk later. Okay, lion?" he got up and walked with his laptop to the bed. I copied his actions and put the laptop next to me on the bed as Dan had done. 

"Just stay here, love, for tonight." I whispered, I didn't want him to leave me, even though he was already gone.

"Okay, lion, g'night." he mumbled, closing his eyes.

"Night, love." I whispered before closing my eyes as well.

I woke up to a screaming echoing in my ears. I sat up abruptly and searched for the source of the heart-breaaking noise when I realised that Dan and I were still on Skype, he had screamed. "Dan?!" I tried to get his attention. I sent a text to Pj telling him to go check on Dan and soon I saw him rush into the room. He saw me on the screen and waved a little before pulling Dan into his arms and hsuhing him.

"It's okay Dan, shh, don't cry." he said as Dan shook in his arms. 

"P'phil." Dan stuttered.

"In the computer, love." I said and he turned towards me. His eyes were empty and the pain was visible in his face. I couldn't do this. I couldn't watch him break. It was killing both of us. All of this, it was going to kill us. "I have to go, love, but listen here, I will see you soon and I am so sorry that this is happening. Pj, treat this boy to ice-cream immediately." I ordered and Pj nodded with a small smile.

"Eat mine for me, love." I told Dan, earning a little tug at his lips.

"I love you, lion." he whispered.

"Love you too, baby." I smiled sadly before closing my laptop. It was the only thing I had taken out of my suitcase so I shoved it back into my case and dragged my bag out of the hotel. I marched up the the guy in charge of our trip, Matt, as he was stood in the lobby.

"I'm going home." i said firmly. "Dan's a mess and this is so stupid. Fire me, I don't care. I'll find something else because this isn't working."

I marched off before he could say another word and called for a taxi.

I was sat on the plane two hourse later. I was going back to Dan. I couldn't handle this anymore. A human being was at risk now, not just a silly job. I rested my head againt the back of my seat as the plane glided along smoothly. Spoke too soon, the plane began to jolt with turbulances. They were big and made me feel sick. Then the seatbelt sign came on and I started to panic. Voices began to raise. There was shouting. Poeple were trying to calm others down. I stared out the window, only seeing black smoke. Oh shit. I let a small whimper come out of my mouth before I felt a pain in my head and then. . . darkness.

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Hey guys! Bit of a filler, bit of a cliff-hanger. I said you would hate me. . . But, it's not over yet! There is more and you might like me again, or not. Guess you'll just have to find out. I have big plans for this book now and I kind of want to write it all right now but it's 11 at night and I have to be up at 6 in the morning. 

I'll see ya in the next chapter! ~Alex