No Strings *COMPLETE*

Chapter 20

                                                                                - Four Months Later-
      There is a light knock at the door and Lilli's voice comes in. "Ski? You up?" I stir a little and mumble "Yeah..." Lilli comes in and sits on the side of my bed. "I brought you some coffee." she says, I roll over to face her and smile. "Thanks!" She hands me the cup but as soon as I get a whift of the smell, I hand it back to her and run to my bathroom, proceding to vomit all of my meals from the previous day. "Ski, are you okay?" Lilli asks, confused. I lean up from 'ole porcelian and wipe my mouth. "Yeah im good," I lie, lying back onto the floor. I feel like my entire stomach flip-flopped and all of he contents inside got all mixed together and spilled out involuntarily.
     "Do I need to bring you some water or something instead" Lilli presses on. "No, Lils. I'm fine. Just please, um... get rid of the coffee?" she hesitiates. "Yeah... sure. I didn't mean to make you sick, I'm sorry." She mutters. The burning urge arises once again, and I swallow, to control it. My eyes water and I puke anyway.
     "It's okay, Lilli. It's not your fault." "What's going on?" I hear Nathan's muffled voice say. "Ski, got sick," Lilli whispers, semi-descreetly. There's an awkward pause before Nathan speaks up again. "Well... Is she... Okay?" "I think so," Lilli replies without confidence. I wipe my mouth once again. "I'm fine guys, stop worrying. You're sounding old." I yell through the door. I hear a few more whispers and footsteps walking away from the bathroom door.
     Hopeing that it wasn't Lilli, I crack the door open and stare at it wishfully. "Lilli," I moan, "I need-" "Water?" She says, poking her head in and cutting me off. I nod and grab it from her, taking a huge gulp. "Thank you," I gasp, attempting to catch my breath.
     She nods. smiling at me, a concerned expression lurking beneath. "You good now?" She asks. "I think so." "So what happened? Did you eat some bad food?" I shrug, "I really don't know. I just... caught a whift of the coffee and got really nauseous. Did Alec switch the coffee brands or something?" "Well... no, I don't think so. The smell made you nauseous?" I nod. She bitse her lip nervously, stepping into the bathroom and closing the door behind her. I stare at her, confused. "How... safe have you and Kieran been?" She whispers. My eyes grow wide, "Um, safe enough that we haven"t ever had sex." "Oh no, no, no!" I raise my eyebrows at her and say, "Isn't it a good thing that we haven't slept together?" "Yes.... no. It's good that you guys didn't, but you know what that means right?" "No?.." I say, still confused. "It mean that if you are.. Pregnant, that it is definitely Nathan's." "Lilli, I'm not... Pregnant," I say, hesitating like it was a forbidden word. "Are you sure? I mean you're sensitive to smells you once loved, and you have morning sickness." "We were careful, always had-" I say, and then stop, suddenly remembering that was a lie. We weren't always careful. There was one time we didn't use anything. That was... Four months ago, while we were on Christmas Break at my parents house. For fuck's sake. I can't seem to catch a break. "You need to tell him, and you need to tell-" "Don't finish that sentence Lilli. I do not need to Nathan or Kierananything, becausase we don't even know what this is, okay?" "Okay, then we need to go get a pregnancy test." I stare at her for a moment. What if... I am? If that test comes out positive, then, this is all too real. Lilli gives me a sympathetic look and says, "I'm here for you, Ski. I love you and if it comes down to it, I will love my future niece or nephew indefinitely."
     I'm over whelmed, and upset, and all I wanna do is cry.... So I do... "Ski, honey." Lilli says symathetically and sits down next to me, rubbing my back. "I'll be okay, lets go to store before we over think this." "Overthink!!! I'm going to be bigger than a watermelon!!! And I'll be fat! And ugly!" I say through sobs. "Ski, you could never be ugly, and you wont gain weight till a couple months down the road."
     Negative thoughts continue to flood my mind and I don't know what to do. Lilli notices my panicked aura and says calmly, "Ski, why don't you hang out here, watch Netflix, take your mind off of this? And I... will go to the drug store and buy a test. It'll be okay." And for a moment, it does seem okay. If I do have a baby, it'll have a family and it'll be so loved...
      I nod, whipping me tears away, before the bad thoughts could cloud my judgement once again.
      She stands up, holding her hand out for me. I take it and stand alongside her as she grips my hand as tight as she can. "You are not alone, Ski. I promise."
     I smile and hug her tightly. "What would I do without you Lills." I say through her hair. "Probably have a never ending breakdown." She says back pulling away from me. I wipe my tears away for the last time. "Yeah, probably." I say with a little laugh. Lilli smiles at me and leads me to the bed.
     Once I'm under the comforter and situated, Lilli hands me the remote and says, "Here, don't watch anything depressing. I'm gonna go let Nate know that he's on call duty for whatever you need." "Okay." I say quietly, not sure how to respond to Lilli's 'Mother Hen' nature.
     Lilli walks out of the room and yells, "I love you, Ski!" "Love you too Lils!" I yell back. I turn the T.V. on and click on 'Shameless'. I resume to season four, episode ten.
     Right as I press play, I hear a light knock on my door. "Comd in." Iyell. "Hey, Lilli told me to bring these to you." I look at Natels hands and see a water bottle, a pack of crackers, and a small waste basket. "Here," he mumbles, thrusting the items at me, and turning on his heel in the same movement. "Thank you," I say to him, all the while getting the door slammed shut in response.
     Whatever, that fucking dick! I groan and press play. V and Kev just had the twins and are wondering where Fiona is. My stomach gets queezy and my head starts to spin at the thought of having a child. The next thing I know I'm throwing up again. This is getting ridiculous I think. My phone starts ringing and it's Kieran. Perfect timing... I think in sarcasm and press the answer button.
     I try to take a few deep breaths and a drink of water before I say anything. "Hey, babe!" says a cheery Kieran. "Hey." I say breathlessly. "What's wrong? You don't sound too good." he says. blaaaaahhhhhhh..... Is the only thing I can say in response. "Are you okay, babe?" I take a minute and get to answer. "No, I'm not." "So that means tonight is cancelled?" "I'm so sorry baby!" Blaaaaahhhh..... "No! Don't be sorry. I'll be there soon to take care of you." Before I could get anything out he hangs up. Fuck! Blaaaaaahhhhh..... After another minute of puking my guts up I finally get to breath.
     I take another sip of my water and Lilli walks in. Test in hand and a small smile on her face. "Alright girl. Lets get this over with." I nod in agreeance and hold my hand out for her to help me up. She does so and we walk to the bathroom. "Do you want me to go in with you or wait outside?" Lilli asks, "Come in with me?.. I'm nervous." "It's okay, I'm here for you." I smile and walk in.
    Lilli leans on the sink as I pull my pants down, sit on the toilet, and begin to unwrap the test stick. Right as I begin peeing, I hear the doorbell. "Are you expecting anyone?" Lilli asks.
     "Shit!!! I totally forgot. Kieran said he was gonna come over and take care of me." "Oh, shit! What do we do?" I put the cap on the test and sit it on the sink. "Ummmm.... Go stall him, or something. Just don't let him come upstairs!" Alright!" Lilli runs out of the bathroom  and I run to my room with the test in hand.
After a minute, I hear voices in the kitchen. Maybe it's safe now, I pull the test out and look at it. Nothing. Maybe I need to wait longer. I start flinging the test back and forth, and begin pacing around the room.
     Two minutes later I look at the test again and pause in my place. Not even a second later Nate knocks on the door and walks in. "Hey, Kieran is here." I look up at him and give him a solum look. "I have something to tell you..." "What's up?" he asks. "Ummm, I'm pregnant."