BTS X Reader Oneshots

Jin x Depressed! Cutting! reader

Trigger warning ⚠️
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I never said these would be all happy one shots

You live alone. You feel alone. The voices in your head are so strong.. making you believe what they are saying. Maybe you should just end it all. You push away everyone who cares, so what's the point?
Thousands of words like that swirl around in my mind as I slump down against the wall of my bathroom. My hands tremble as I grip the only friend I can trust. Blood drips onto my leg as I drag it across the flesh of my wrist. I deserve the pain.
I jolt my head up at a sudden knock at the front door, but I can't stop. They knock again before speaking.
"Y/n? Are you home? Are you ok?" A familiar voice says. Why does he still care? Why doesn't he just leave you like the rest of them do?
I can't bring myself to speak, only silent tears left me as more blood dripped. I hear the door open and him yell again.
"Y/n? Where are you?" He says as he walks towards the bathroom I was in. I still can't stop. Just one more, that's what I tell myself over and over again.
He walks past the door, but quickly turn around and is at my side like the speed of lightning.
"Y/n! Are you ok?" He questions, tears threatening to spill out of his eyes," I knew I should've came earlier. I'm so freaking sorry, Y/n. I should've been here for you."
He snatches the blade from my hand and helps me to my feet. More tears fell from my sore eyes as he holds a soft towel around my arm. He pulled me into an embrace and hugged me tightly as I sobbed into his chest.
  You're only bothering him.
You should've cut deeper.
You shouldn't even be here right now.
You're worthless.
"Y/n.. Why?" He asks, his voice cracking. I can't speak, so I hug him tighter. He rubs my back reassuringly, not caring that the front of his shirt is now soaked. When I finally pull away, he wipes my face with a napkin and I slump down against the wall. He sits down beside me and puts his hand on my shoulder.
  "Why do you still care?" I choke out, more tears threatening to fall,
  "What?" He questions, looking a little confused.
  "Why do you still care about me? All I've done is just been being a burden to you. Why haven't you left me like the rest have?" I ask, looking down at the newly make cuts on my wrist that look ready to ooze more blood. He pauses for a moment before speaking.
"Because.. I love you, Y/n" he says. My eyes widen in shock as I turn to look at him. His face was bright red as a tear left his eye at the sight of my wrists.
"It's ok. I know you don't like me back but I-" he starts but I cut him off my putting my hand on top of his. He looks at me as hope sparkles in his tear filled eyes.
"I love you too, Jin. Thank you for staying by me and not leaving like everybody else. I'm sorry I kept pushing you away," I say, more tears escaping my eyes. He intertwines our fingers before pulling me into a hug.
  For once I feel safe in somebody's arms. I never thought I would, especially someone as sweet as Jin. He pulls away and stands up before leaning down and scooping me up in his arms. He sits me on the bathroom counter and examines my wrist.
  "Where's your bandages and stuff?" He asks. I go to get down but he stops me," I'll get it"
  I sigh and tap the cabinet under me with my foot and he bends down to get it. Shivers crawl up my spine as his head brushes against my thigh as he stands back up with the box.
  He opens it and takes out the hydrogen peroxide, gauze, and bandaging tape. He takes my small wrist in his hand and holds it over the sink.
  "I'm sorry. This is gonna burn," he says before sprinkling the bubble liquid on my freshly cut skin. I flinch at the contact, but quickly become used to it. I watch as it foams up and drips into the sink. He turns the spicket on and holds my arm under it before drying it with a wash cloth. He presses a piece of gauze around my wrist and tapes it, making sure it's not too tight.
  "All done," he says and he helps me off the counter,
  "Thank you," I say. His arms look so inviting.. I want to hug him,"Jin.. can I hug you?" I ask, my face turning red.
  "You don't have to ask, love. You can always hug me whenever you need to," he says as he holds out his arms. I give him a weak but thankful smile and wrap my arms around his sturdy frame. He wraps his arms around me and holds me close, engulfing me in his warmth. I can hear his heartbeat, which was beating fast. I don't want to let go, but I force myself to after a few minutes.
  "Thank you," I say once again, pushing the voices out of my head.
  "There's no need to thank me," he says with a warm smile, " I had brought you some food and a movie to watch. I was gonna surprise you since you had been kinda ignoring me lately."
I look down with shame, but he lift my chin up with his thumb.
"It's ok. Don't worry," he says as he still holds that beautiful smile. I smile back and we walk out of the bathroom and into the living room.
"I brought some bulgogi I cooked, chicken, (your favorite cake), snacks, and (your favorite movie)," he says as he picks up the containers and the dvd on the coffee table.
"Thank you, Jin," I say, realizing how lucky I am to have someone that actually cares and doesn't leave no matter how much I push him away. He smiles and pats my shoulder before going to the kitchen and warming up the food.
He's only going to leave in the end.
You should've ended it.
You know he doesn't really care.
He's just using you.
I snap out of my thoughts as a pair of arms wrap around me from behind.
"Ignore them, Y/n. I'm here for you and I'm not gonna leave," he says, as if he knew what was going through my head. I put my hands on top of his and brush my thumbs over his knuckles.
He gently tugs at me and we fall on the couch together. He holds me tight in his arms and kisses the top of my head before reaching over and grabbing the food off the table. He hands a bowl to me and keeps one for himself before he starts the movie. It smells amazing. I must've ate really quick, because Jin looked at me like I had just run a mile in thirty seconds.
"When was the last time you ate, Y/n?" He questions, concern written all over his face. I stop and think for a moment before answering him.
"Some time yesterday I think," I say as I resume eating my food.
"I'm gonna bring you food. You need to eat properly," he sighs. I sit my dish on the table and snuggle closer into his side.
"Do you want any cake?" He asks as he sits his dish down beside mine.
"No, thank you," I say and shake my head. He snakes his arm around my shoulders and pulls me closer to him. He takes the blanket that was in the chair beside us and throws it over us. I rest my head on his shoulder and he rests his on mine whilst taking my hand in his and intertwining our fingers.

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