Torn (Second Series) {Completed}

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(I know I said that I wouldn't put any TW's in this book, but I feel like this chapter kinda needs one)

"Y'know what? Nevermind.. uh you can go back to doing whatever you were doing." The anger in his eyes came back, lasting longer as he stared at the ground.

"R-" I try to ask if Roman's ok, but a voice stops my words.

"Virgil!" Deceit called happily down the hallway. He ran up to me smiling. "I wanna talk to you."

He grabbed my wrist and pulled me farther down the hallway to my room.

"Ugh. What do you want?" I asked, quite annoyed at the fact that I was trying to talk to my boyfriend but he just pulled me away to my room.

He smiled and went on to talk about him and Remus.

(Romans pov)

I can't take it anymore.

I slammed my door shut angrily and locked it, not caring who heard me.

Virgil's been cheating with me on Deceit and I just. can't. TAKE IT!

"There's more proof that he's cheating on you, Roman." Xela whispered into my ear. "It was obvious that he didn't love you."

I grab my hair and tug at it, turning around and sliding my back down the door.

Tears threatened to spill from my eyes as Xela kept talking.

(Btw it's pronounced Zeluh)

"How could you possibly think you had a chance with him?" He chuckled. "Nobody will ever love you and nobody ever has."

"Please, just shut up, Xela." I choked out.

He continued to say horrible things despite my pleads.

He somehow got me into my bathroom and simply said,

"Do it." While pointing at the blade that was sitting atop the counter.

"N-no I can't. Not ag-again." I stutter. The tears finally spill from my eyes as I remember Deceit and Virgil.

"Yes you can." He took the blade from the counter and quickly shoved it into my right hand. He forced my right hand towards my left arm after pulling my sleeve up and taking off the gauze that were on it.

"No. No. No no no. Nononononono. I can't, Xela!" I exclaimed, tears still furiously cascading down my cheeks.

"YES YOU FUCKING CAN!" He yelled. His grip on my wrist tightened and he made me scream in pain as he forced the blade deep down my left forearm.

The cut was so deep, you could see bone showing.

But despite the pain, I felt a small wave of calmness hit me.

When I make deeper cuts it's usually be stronger, but Xe did it this time, so I'm gonna guess that's why it was weaker.

I know I felt it though.

Anywho, back to the immense pain in my arm.

"FUCK!" I yell, a strangled sob escaping my lips.

I somehow got my wrist out of Xela's bone crushing grasp, and threw the bloody blade into the sink.

I looked at the cut, seeing blood seeping out of the fresh wound and quickly flowing down to the puddle of blood it's made.

Looking deeper into the cut, I could see white showing down at the bottom.

Immediately, I felt puke starting to quickly crawl up my throat. My eyes wouldn't move away, it's like the only thing that was functioning correctly in my body was my heart beat and the throw up.

Finally though, I got my self to turn towards the toilet and throw up.

I coughed a few times after puking.

"What the hell, Xela?!" I yelled.

"It made you feel better. Didn't it?" He smirked.

I stood up from the toilet and flushed it.

"Kind of..." I guiltily looked at the ground.

"Well then why are you so mad at me?" Xela asked while walking up next to me and lazily hanging his arm around my shoulders.

I look at the blade in my hand. It suddenly starts to feel like it's a thousand pounds heavy.

What the hell?

I start to sway a bit, feeling dizzy, but I try to hide it.

"Uh, I don't, I don't know." I said between pants of breath.

Why the hell is it so hard to breathe?

I set the bloody blade back down on the counter.

I try and walk over to my bathroom door to leave, which I am successful with. I just slammed into a couple things from the dizziness (including the door).

It took an immense amount of strength for me to open the door, but it happened.

I tried walking to my bed, but my vision starts to go black and I couldn't find it anymore.

Fuck.

"Dude, Roman, are you okay?" Xela asks, following me.

I nod my head, unable to speak.

Suddenly my body goes limp and I lose my consciousness.

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