Dear Skylar (Completed)

Chapter 25

SKYLAR

Two days has passed since I had that talk with Gabe. I hate myself for having to end it. I knew it was the right thing to do, but having to bury my feelings for him just for the others sake is draining me. Truth is, I've fallen in love with him.

It didn't hit me until I found Ben in my room the night his grandfather died. I felt this sudden change when I saw him. I didn't have the urge to hug him or desire to kiss him. It was as if my feelings towards him just went away, and I was just staring at a boy that was once just my best friend all those years ago. Don't get me wrong I do love Ben, always will, but it's a different love now. And it made me realize the reason why I fell out of love with him, was because I'd fallen for someone else. His brother.

The guilt was eating me away like never before. Knowing not only did I cheat on Ben with his brother, but I fell in love with him too. The pain and guilt I felt was unbearable. Especially every time I looked at him, I can still see the love in his eyes he has for me. I hated myself, and I knew the only way to make things right, was to end it Gabe. I thought since my love for him was new, that if I ended it now my feelings for him would subside. But it didn't work, I'm miserable. I told my friends I was sick, but really I cried for two days straight. But as much as it hurts, I know I made the right decision.

I look in the mirror and touch up my make up before I go next store. Today is Grandpa Willis's funeral, which also means today is the day I'm going to see both of the Parker brothers. I haven't seen any of them in days except Ben, but he just came to give me details about the funeral. Other than that, I've been avoiding them both.

I'm wearing the same black dress I wore to Cameron's funeral. It's just a simple black knee length dress, but wearing it again brings back the old memories I try to forget.

"Cupcake, are you ready?" Aunt Stacey yells, from downstairs.

"Coming!" I tuck in Gabe's necklace under my dress, and leave my bedroom.

I run down downstairs where Stacey, Anna, and Kelly are waiting for me. Of course everyone is in black except Kelly. She's wearing a sparkly club dress with red and black cheetah print in it. I swear even when this day isn't about her she finds a way to be the center of attention.

"Really Kelly?" I give her a judgmental look.

"What? You know I wear bright colors only.  And this is the only dress I have with black on it!" She defends.

"Alright you girls ready to go?" Aunt Stacey asked.

"Why do Anna and I have to go anyway? It's not like we knew the guy," Kelly complains.

"Just shut up and pay your respects. Alright let's go," Aunt Stacey waves us out the house.

We leave the house and head to the funeral. We get to the church it immediately brings me back to my brothers funeral. Suddenly I feel my throat closing up and it's getting harder for me to breathe.

"Sorry, excuse me," I exist the church immediately.

Once I'm outside I take deep breaths, trying to relax my nerves.

"Sky?" I turn around and see Ben with a worried look on his face. "You okay?" He asked.

"Yeah, sorry. Just being here reminds me of–"

"Cameron," he nods, understanding. "Are you sure you want to be here?"

"Yeah, I'll be fine don't worry," I give him a small smile.

"Well would you mind sitting next to me? We can help each other get through it together."

"Yeah, I would love too."