He scrunches his forehead as my words sink in. His grip loosens, but he holds my hands lightly. My tears start falling like rain again. Duckie looks around and hugs me. I cry onto his chest even though I want to run again.
“Why would you hate yourself?”
I swallow hard as I try to choose my words. “No one…everyone…I…”
He kisses my forehead. “Let’s go sit and talk.”
We go to a picnic table and take a seat. I put my hands in my lap, still trying to think of the right words. He sits on top of the table cross legged and waits for me to speak. My eyes refuse to look up at him. Why did I say that? It’s the truth, but now I need to explain the truth. Why can’t I just hate Duckie? That would be so much easier. He sniffles quietly. My head jolts up to look at him. He looks up at the sky, but not before I realize that he’s crying.
“Duckie, it’s because I love you.”
He nods slowly even though it’s obvious he doesn’t get it. “That’s brilliant.”
I put my hand on his knee. “I wish I didn’t love you.”
He glares at me. “What?”
“Why were you at TRAX?”
He takes a deep breath and immediately stops glaring. He licks his lips and puts his hand on mine. He wipes his tears on his sleeve. I love him, feel bad that he’s crying, and yet hate myself for caring. He doesn’t want me. He wants Andie.
“I had to see her,” he admits in defeat. “I missed her.”
I clench my fist. “You missed her more than you wanted to kiss me.”
“I know that’s how it seems, but I’m…” he shakes his head. “I’m in love with you, Caroline.”
My heart pounds at the words. “But you miss her more than you love me?”
He gets off the table and sits next to me. “Caroline, listen to me. I love you…I really do.”
“But?”
“But nothing. I really love you. And at the same time, I…”
I close my eyes. “Love Andie?”
“Who cares if I do? I love you and I love her! Why isn’t that enough?”
I finally lose it and slap his face. “I care!” I stand up. “You can’t love me the same way you love her!”
He stands up with me, angry as well. “And why not?”
“Because she doesn’t love you!”
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Falling In Love With The Duck
FanfictionWe all know the movie. Duckie gets turned down repeatedly by Andie. But what if he had a friend who he confided in who was absolutely in love with him like he loved Andie? Caroline knows how Duckie feels when Andie turns him down because he has do...
