Basketballs and Guitars (BOYxBOY)

Chapter 14

Ryan's POV

"Ry!" Ena said, running towards me after saying goodbye to her friends.I smiled at her and I smiled at how she used my nickname. That's Kyle's nickname for me.

"Hey" was all I said. She frowned a bit but the smile was back on her face "let's go to the rooftop okay?" she said and I just nodded.

My mind was obviously somewhere else. It was in a world where Jam never existed and Kyle was mine. Where we would still be the best bros. Where we'd playfully hit each other and even insult each other but in the end we'll defend each other.

Wait a minute.

He's just my best friend, why the hell am I jealous of this Jam guy? As far as I'm concerned, maybe Jam rejected Kyle and he would be crying into my arms sooner or later.

Who are you kidding Ryan? My subconscious said, You saw them awhile ago and they're perfectly happy with each other. You don't have a chance. Why did you have to fall in love with him.

What? Me? In love with Kyle. No! I have Ena.

No. You're using her, my subconscious spoke up.

No I'm not. I mentally replied.

You are. What's the reason you and Aena didn't wok out? he is. You knew you had feelings for him, and you were confused. If that's not love, then what is? My subconscious said, causing my tummy to clench. I hate this feeling. It's the second time I've felt it and I absolutely hate it.

The first time was when Kyle and I had a sleepover and he told me all about his feelings. How he wants to stay a bad boy. How he doesn't want people to make fun of him, and that's when I started hating people who get too close to Kyle.

I hated girls who fangirl over him. I hated boys who touch him, even just a friendly touch. I hated Khalil the most I guess, because he used to be Kyle's best friend but turns out, he used him to get girls.

I hate Jam. I hate the way he stole Kyle away from me quickly. Kyle didn't even give a damn about him until that day where he asked about him.

I hate whoever put them together. I hate all of their friends who think they look cute together. Except that one girl.

July is her name I think.

The way she looked at Jam. The way Kyle glared at her. 

I think I might have someone who'll be by my side. Maybe if I talk to her, we can form a plan that will make the both of us happy.

A plan to make Kyle mine and Jam hers.

"Ryan? Are you okay? You've been staring into space and mumbling to yourself for a while now" Ena said, shaking me away from my thoughts.

"I'm fine" I lied. I'm starting to hate Ena too,or maybe just the fact that I can't tell her how I feel.

I hate myself.

I'm lying to everyone else, because of this stupid feelings.

I hate everyone else.

I hate Kyle.

But I love him.

Or maybe I just hate him for making me fall in love.

I waited outside the classroom, ducking when the teacher passed by. 

"Ryan? Why didn't you tell me you skipped class? You got me worried" Kyle said as he came out of the classroom followed by Jam and saw me.

I shrugged, feeling a bit happy that he was concerned. "Can I talk to July?" I said, but as soon as I said her name, he frowned.

"why?" he asked coldly, sending shivers at the back of my neck.

"None of your business, that's why" I said, rolling my eyes and finally getting out of his way as I saw July.

Every insult or hit I made was just the effect of the pain and rage I've been hiding inside myself. 

"Hey you" I said, ignoring the glares of the people around her.

"what?" she said as rudly as me.

"I need to talk to you in private" I said. She nodded and waved goodbye to her friends. We started walking off  and I can feel Kyle's icy glare. I smiled a bit, knowing he's jealous that the person he hates the most is with his best friend. I'll make him feel what I feel.

As soon as we found a desserted place, July said "what do you want?"

"I want Kyle, and before you react, I know you want Jam" I said calmly as surprise overcame her face as she realized I was gay.

"You're gay? And how's you know I like Kyle" she asked.

"Yes I do and if Kyle hates you, it means you're after what he wants. What he has"

"what he has?" July asked confusingly.

I rolled my eyes, "He and Jam are TOGETHER" I said.

"Oh" she said "no wonder he hates me so much"

"exactly, and I have a plan, but you have to do it"

"why?"

"because Kyle's my best friend, I can't sabotage him, but you can. Plus I can tell you hate him"

"Fine. What's the plan?" July said as she agreed.

"They haven't come out yet, only a couple of people know. You will somehow get the word to spread out.Get pictures and post them all around and all. Kyle might be brave but if he finds out that everyone knows he's gay, he'll hide and he might even hopefully break up with Jam. He'll be mine and Jam will be yours" I said.

"alright, I hope this works" July said.

"It will" I assured her.

Or at least I hope it will.

Screw Jam. 

Soon, it's gonne be me and Kyle against the world.