I probably sounded absolutely stupid. I'm pretty sure I studdered, which probably made it obvious that I was nervous. I couldn't help it! This was going to make a major change in my life, either bad or good. As I walked back to my table I took a deep breath and started contemplating exactly what and how I would say to explain to Vic the fact that I have a major crush on him. I rubbed my temples in an attempt to magically bring ideas to my mind. It didn't work. Ugh. I turned to Jenna. " Jenna. Help." That was all I had to say for her to spill a plan that was obviously pre-made by her proactive mind. She was the first (and only) person I had told that I was gay. She had been telling me to just confess to him and so I assumed she had this plan for a while, so that when I finally manned up that i wouldnt make a complete fool of myself. " Ok, I think I've got that. We are meeting in the courtyard after school." I said slowly after she explained her ideas. She nodded to herself, as if having a conversation in her mind. She finally looked back over to me and smiled. " Good luck Kellin. Trust me. This will be good for you, to know if he feels the same ya know?" I knew. I was just scared out of my mind of rejection. Positive thoughts, Kellin. It could go either way. Just hope for the better one. With that I was walking off to my next class. There was only one more period after this one until everyone was relived by the bell signalling that we could leave this hell hole for the rest of the day. That also ment that there was only one more period left until I would meet Vic in the courtyard to tell him my 'secret'. I sat down at my desk in the dusty English classroom. Please let this period be a long one. I needed time to rehearse what would say to him in my mind. I needed to think about everything. I wanted this to be perfect. I slumped down in my uncomfortable plastic chair and tuned out the dull and emotionless voice of Mr. Hamm. All I was thinking about was those chocolate brown eyes that belonged to one and only one person. The one with shoulder length wavy brown hair to match his eyes. The only difference was his eyes sparkled. But put it all together and you get one hell of a hottie! Before I knew it, my classmates were stuffing their binders and books into their backpacks. Wow, how could 90 minutes have already passed? I guess time flies when you're daydreaming! Now that I had thouth t everything through, I didn't want to go to last period. I wanted to meet Vic now. I knew exactly what I was going to say but I couldn't skip and I knew that Vic wouldn't agree on it either. I don't even know what class he's in! It only 90 more minutes. But that hour and a half was an awfully long time now that I had something to look forward to.
