Hey guys! Sorry I've been gone so long but I'm back so here's an update for ya :P
"Hey Kells... It's Vic, obviously... Um so I still don't understand why you left but um if you ever ya know, feel like coming back... I'm, I'm always here Kellin. And I, I'm gonna be waiting for you. That's what I've been doing actually, just waiting but the phone looking out the window. Um so yeah.... Listen Kells why ever you left, it means nothing to me. Well, I mean, it matters but, UGH. What I mean is that nothing in the world could make me stop loving you and I really hope you know that because I want you back Kellin. What do I have to do to get the love of my life back? Huh?! You know THAT right? You're the love of my life Kellin. No man or woman could ever fill your role. And if we ever part, god forbid that ever happened, I would never be happy. You make me happy Kellin. Scratch that, you make me .... You make me feel something that words alone cannot explain. I can't even put my love for you into words that I know but I'm sure there is some big word that would perfectly explain it but you know me... yea, you know me! You get me and that's really hard to do. You are amazing Kellin and nothing less, but maybe more. Don't you EVER doubt that. I love you. "
*End voicemail*
It's only been maybe an hour but I've called him 10 times and I'm worried sick with the dreadful thoughts clouding my mind. I know Kellin but not all too well. My mind tends to think of the worse possible situation so you can imagine what has me worried. Better yet, I have no clue where the little dork went.
My little dork. God he's made me a different person. Yea I've been in relationships before but not like this. There was that one time I.... no no I can't think about that, not now. Too much already on my mind... I slouched down on the couch and let out a loud sigh.
"What to doooooooooo?" I asked literally nobody. Although I guess my aunt heard me because next thing I know she's on the couch next to me with Life (the game not the cereal XD) "Wanna play?" she asked. I nodded and we set up all the little game pieces together. My eyes wandered to the 'get married' section of the board and smiled. Maybe one day that'll be Kells and I...
"Whatcha thinking about hun?" my aunt smiled at me. "Well, I was just thinking about the fact that they don't have a spot that says 'your boyfriend ran away and you have no idea where he is or why he left and you really wish he was here with you because he's the love of your life and you want to tell him that to his face because it's not enough to just leave a voicemail saying it' ..."
My aunt's mouth hung open and I ran out of the room crying.
You do this to yourself you that right, Vic? You're hurting yourself, do you like that? Huh? I bet you do. Don't care about your own being. You know that's really weak. Putting other people's needs before yours. You shouldn't have to deal with their shit when you've got your own problems. Shit, those people ARE problems! Why do ya do that Vic? You're just making your life harder. And all this 'falling in love' shit, nah. You're NOT in love. You don't know what love is. You might think you do, but you don't.
"Please stop.... "
Weak.
"Shut up!"
You're worthless you know?
"Stop it!!" I pulled at my hair and smacked the sides of my head with my palms to get the voices out. It wasn't working.
Go back to him....
"K-Kellin? I can't, he left me... I, I don't know where he is..."
No, not that kid, you know who I'm talking about....
"Oh, yea... Why him though?"
He'll comfort you, love you... He won't leave you....
My mind had a point, he wouldn't leave me. I reached for my phone and dialed his number. I held it up to my ear and waited patiently for him to pick up....
