Ashton's P.O.V.
I know I promised myself I would never do this but I have to. I already have enough pain in my heart, might as well just add some more. I grabbed my razor, I unscrew the little screw on it and grab one of the blades. I looked in the mirror. Ugly, Worthless, No Good, No One Will Ever Love Me. I thought all those things over and over again before I pressed the blade to my wrist then slid it across. I shock of pain went through me but it didn't stop me.
"One, Two, Three, Four. Five, Six, Seven and Eight" I counted. Never even thought I would do this to myself but I did, Eight cuts. This is A Part of Me I've Never Seen.
"Ashton?" I heard Luke ask, I looked up when I saw that he was at the doorway of my bathroom. I gave him a weak smile before I threw the blade on the floor.
"Please don't do this again." he said
"I don't know, man" I said and looked down.
"Luke, have you found Asht-" I heard Calum coming up then he stood by Luke. Both of them sharing the same expression, shocked and sad.
"Why Ashton?" Calum asked.
"I just- No one loves me." I said a tear falling. I quickly swiped it away. "Where's Michael?" I asked.
"Right here" I heard his voice, I looked up and saw him frowning. "You need to stop" he said.
"Can we do something fun? I don't need your sympathy." I said as I closed my eyes.
"Yeah, just try and cover those up. You wouldn't want anyone to see" Luke said and I nodded.
"Yeah! No more sadness!" Calum yelled and I just smiled.
"Okay, let me change then we can go somewhere" I said.
"Okay we'll be waiting in your room!" Michael yelled when they left the bathroom. I smiled knowing that I have the three best friends in the world. I washed my cuts, trying to get some blood off. I grabbed a towel and put some pressure on my wrist. When I took the towel off most of my cuts stopped bleeding except one, which was my last one I made.
I went to my room and grabbed a shirt and some jeans. I quickly changed into them, since it's just us guys in here. I grabbed some bracelets and put them on my left wrist since that's where all my cuts are.
"Okay let's go!" I said.
"Yay!" Michael yelled then ran out of my room.
"A night of happiness, remember." Calum said and I just rolled my eyes.
"I'll make the most of it" I said then followed Luke and Calum.
Yay new chapter, I barely update on this. Glad I came up with this idea. Later Haters, Love You All!
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