Where I Belong ~Undertale Story~

Chapter 14

~A Conversation and A Reprimanding~

All I saw was darkness. Pitch black. No noise, no light, nothing. Then there were lights. Ones that resembled stars. I could suddenly see my hands, my feet, my body. 

"Ari~"

I heard a voice call to me. Then yet another light appeared. This one was not like the rest. This one was a bright pink. At first, it was just that, a light. Then it formed into someone I hadn't see in what seemed like decades, even though it was only a few years.

"Mom?"

"Hello, my sweet. It's been such a long time since I've seen you. You've grown a little bit."

I fell to my knees, tears already streaming down my face.

"Oh my dear. Why are you crying?"

"I-I'm so sorry! I've d-done such terrible things lately a-and I know you wouldn't b-be p-proud of me."

I sobbed and crumbled. Mom was the only one I could show weakness to and not feel bad about it. She knelt down, tucking her finger under my chin and gently lifting my head up.

"You're right. This behavior of yours makes me very disappointed in you. And I expect that when you leave here, you apologize and set things right. But we'll talk about that later. Let me see it."

I didn't have to ask her what she meant. I reached inside myself and pulled out my crumbling, cracked soul. She cupped it in her hands and a look of sadness filled her.

"This is why you acted out. This SOUL represents your humanity and morals. It was damaged and slowly, your negative thoughts and feelings corrupted it. When you lashed out and attacked Gaster, the overwhelming feelings eventually crushed it and this was the result."

She sighs

"I thought I taught you better than that, Arissa."

"I know, mom. You did teach me better than that. I guess I was just so lost in my past that it just got to me. I'm still not over losing you, even though it's been about 4 years. And the way I was treated for being a witch? The pain and anger never left me."

She sighs again, placing her hand on my cheek, rubbing it lovingly with her thumb.

"My sweet girl. I understand all of that. You think I didn't go through what you went through at your age? I did and I agree, it was absolutely terrible. But I learned early on that lashing out at those trying to help you and letting yourself be overrun with negative emotions makes you almost equal to those who have done you wrong. You've got to accept that what happened, happened. And move on with your life. And I told you the day I died that I wasn't completely gone. Thanks to you giving my SOUL to Gaster, I'm able to live again, in a sense. I'm still here, sweetheart. Alright?"

I listened to her and took her words in. She was right, of course. I did need to let it all go. What was the point in dwelling? It did me no good in the long run.

"Okay. Oh god, poor sans. He's had to deal with this stuff since he met me. I definitely owe him an apology."