my thoughts

~Hidden~

This is something I've written a couple of years ago. Xx me

I wanna be me , who I really am, not who you want me to be. I don't want to hide my inner self because of all the thoughts and opinions from other people. But I'm scared, scared for people's reaction, scared to be mentioned, scared of eyes looking at me, scared of voices saying something about me, scared of trusting someone. Because the more you care for, the more you have to lose. I am afraid to lose myself because it's hidden. I wish I could be a little kid again. So I could be myself. No opinions, no problems, no fears, just playing with other people without thinking that they probably won't like me. After reading my own words again and again, it sounds ridiculous, it sounds like I want this to be heard, but I don't. I don't want attention like that. The only attention I don't mind, is when I'm on stage. When I'm acting or playing music. Because at that moment people only listen. Without thinking at all.