“We're started the exam and why are you very late,Miss Seirrs” Napatingin sa akin ang buong klase habang nakatayo ako sa harap ng desk ng aming professor.He looked annoyed dahil na distract ko yung kumukuha ng examination.Napatingin siya sa buong klase at he give a warnings to those students who are cheating and he turned his attention back to me.
“Next time don't enter the classroom without my permission” He narrowed his eyes. I tried to control not to roll my eyes at him baka hindi ako makakuha ng exam.My atmosphere is bad dahil na rin kumakalam ang sikmura ko. I want to eat breakfast bago ako sumabak sa giyera pero my appetite lost. Hindi ako masyadong naka tulog ka gabi at may vitamins ako iniintake para hindi ako halatang puyat.
I'm about to take the final exam nang dahil sa kakaiyak ko ka gabi kaya tuloy I woke up late in the morning, buti nalang 10:30 ang exam ko. No hassle and no trouble, pero late lang talaga ako ng 16 minutes.I dried all the tears last night. I did promise to myself that I will not let his shadow entered in my life again. He tore me into pieces and I shattered on the ground as he stepped and stomped his feet, after that,he left me broken.
“I'm sorry sir medyo na traffic lang,Sir” I pressed my lips as a sign of sarcassity.
He twitched his lips into one side na parang pinag-aaral niya ang rason ko kung plausible ba talaga pero sa tingin ko, he's convince.
“Ok…I understood” He smirked before he handed to me the test paper.Sa tingin ko gusto niya na makahabol ako na masagutan ko ang mga tanong.
“Thank you sir” I drawed sa rehearsed smile on my face.
What should I expect comprehensive ang exam. Kaya I believe in my stock knowledge mula sa pre-lim at mid-term lesson, at medyo hindi ako nakapag focus sa final.
I walked nonchalantly and settled myself as usual sa tabi ni Matilde. She looked at me with confused expression.
“Nakapag-aral kaba,dae?” She uttered almost whisper, and bit the tip of her pen.
I shook my head as indication that I hadn't study last night instead I cried until I fall asleep.
“That's bad you need to pass this exam” She lowered her voice again.After kong ma confined sa hospital,dalawang araw akong nagpapahinga pero sa tingin ko hindi ko pa rin siya maalis sa isipan.He like a drug that I can't get rid of him.
“Magtiwala ka sa akin dae, I can do this.I can pass the exam” After what I said to Matilde,our professor warned us to mine our own papers.Kaya walang kibuan until we finished our exam.
Lumabas ako ka agad ng kuarto pagkatapos kong sagutin ang lahat ng questions at I submitted the test paper to our professor. He asked me once again if I am really sure to my answers, dahil ako ang unang nakatapos,at late pa akong kumuha.
I just nodded.
Dinala ako ng mga paa ko dito sa loob ng comfort room habang naka harap ako sa salamin at sink.
I puked.
A morning sickness kong saan nararanasan ng mga nagdadalang tao. Cliché na to pero this is the reality.
I am 2 weeks pregnant pagkatapos ng ginagawa ko, ito ang napala ko. We're so careless kahit educated kami sa sex education, we didn't used contraceptives instead we enjoyed unsafe sex.
This is your karma Alyssa for being a slut.
I puked again.
Humarap ako sa salamin kung saan ang mga eyebags sa aking mga mata ay lumilitaw katulad ng high tide sa dagat.I applied concealer naman ah bakit pa sila lumalabas baka mahalata ito ni Matilde ,kaya I fished my make-up kit sa bag. I did retouched.
