Sanders Sides One Shots

If I Can't Have You {Analogical} (AnxietyxLogic)

 I'm in Toronto and I got this view But I might as well be in a hotel room (Yeah) It doesn't matter 'cause I'm so consumed. spending all my nights reading texts from you.

I hate being away from home on business trips. I'm always worried I will come home to a mess caused by the other three. But I also miss Virgil. I can't stop reading things me and him have said to each other. I keep trying to figure out if he feels the same way I do. I guess I will never find out. Usually he is the one full of anxiety. That's why he has that nickname but this time its my turn. I can never tell him.

Oh, I'm at keeping my distance
I know, that you're the feeling I'm missing
You know that I hate to admit it
But everything means nothing if I can't have you

I've kept my distance from Virgil since i got home. I can't be around him without it being obvious. I'm scared he will figure it out and our friendship we have will be ruined. I can't risk that. When he's in the kitchen i take food to my room. When he's watching tv I read in my room instead. When hes working i stay out of the room  ore than i used to. Things can never be the way they were before I fell in love with him.

Can't drink without thinking about you

I can't stop thinking about him. I thought drinking would help me forget about him for a while but i wouldn't have tried it if i knew it would just make me think about him even more!

Is it wrong for me to not want half
I want all of you, all the strings attached

I want to be with him so badly. I wish I could tell him that. I want everything that would come with dating anxiety. But it will never happen. He'd never feel the same.

I'm trying, to move on, forget you, but I hold on

I'm trying to forget him but it's not working! He's always in my head. No matter where I go. No matter what I do. He never leaves my mind.

I can't write one song that's not about you
Can't drink without thinking about you
Is it too late to tell you that
Everything means nothing if I can't have you?

"Virgil" "Yeah? What's up Logan?" Here goes nothing. "I need to tell you something..." "sure. what is it?" This is more terrifying then i thought. "I.... I love you......" Silence. Nothing but silence. I knew telling him was a bad idea. "I love you to" Maybe it's a good thing i told him. Maybe i can have my happy ending after all.

I can't write one song that's not about you
Can't drink without thinking about you
Is it too late to tell you that
Everything means nothing if I can't have you?