DANGEROUS DESIRE (REWRITING)

XIV

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WARNING ⚠️ Mature scene up ahead⚠️

I sat in a café scrolling through my Instagram I've gained so many more followers over the one-year break I took, I got a lot of concerned messages from a lot of people even strangers care for me more than family, I occasionally take sips out of my boozy baileys coffee milkshake then took a bite out of my cookie

Suddenly I felt an intense gaze, a frown from its way upon my face I finally looked up only to be met with a pair of mesmerizing dark grey stormy eyes that belonged to Zathrian they held no emotion he was looking so serious I swear he's everywhere I go.

He is sitting with a guy his lips are moving but his eyes are on me I've never studied his features all I know is that he's drop-dead gorgeous

I stared back at him with as much intensity he had dark brown eyebrows that sloped downwards in a serious expression he was well-defined with broad shoulders and very muscular biceps I could just imagine the eight pack he had a sharp jaw and angular cheekbones pink lips neatly gelled thick dark brown hair he had no facial hair his hairline is neat there were tattoos on his knuckles and some peeking from the neckline of his suit he's very handsome

He smirked at me and I rolled my eyes I sat in discomfort for a whole ten minutes because of his harsh, intense gaze

I finally looked up and he was now sitting alone with his iPad in his hand without thinking, I got up took my things, and went over

I sat in front of him waiting for him to acknowledge my presence, he didn't even look at me feeling unwanted I was about to get up

"Now you're interested in talking to me" his voice stopped my action he was not looking up at me

"Why did you do it?" I ask

Now that I gained his attention he looked at me knowing exactly what I was talking about

"Avyanna focus on the future that's all in the past," he says why does he have to call my name that beautifully

"I need to know,"

"Avyanna move on stop wasting your time looking back on what you've lost move on!"

I lost nothing my subconscious says

"I can't! Not with the nightmares! I haven't had a proper sleep in a year!" I shout

People gave us nasty glares

I can't sleep, I wake with nightmares or I don't close my eyes at all, I've been feeding on sleeping pills even then I wake up covered in sweat with a racing heart

"Not my problem! You'll get over it eventually, life is not meant to be traveled backward, and that's what you're doing focus on the future," he says.

"Our future" he hinted

"Okay fine don't tell me why you let me live. Why didn't you just kill me?" I ask with watery eyes

"Avyanna can you move on and stop living in the past, you don't want to die you may be unhappy but death, you don't want that,"  he says looking at me with a serious expression