The comfort level attacks
Conversation with big smiles
About anything and everything
Strong urge to hug and let go
Happy feels
Feeling real
No more emptiness anymore
Less lonely, more at home
Feels good to have a confidante
Want to pull my hair out
When he does not get it
Don't want to be with you
But want to all the same
How do I stay true to what I want
When I also want you
But you are not what I want
Stop telling me I am special
Stop telling me that I am amazing
And making me feel so good about myself
Stop having so much power
I miss you
I still love you
Make it stop
Stop making me fall again
When I haven't got up yet
I will break again
When I haven't even completely healed yet
Let me think
Let me come to my own conclusions
Give me time
Give me space
Stop being my oxygen
Let me breathe the air I have
And find oxygen from somewhere else
Not someone else, somewhere else
And let me revaluate
Get out of this unclear state
Know what I want
Know what I need
And actually go after it
Please
I request.
