GIVE UP 《c.tz x j.jk 》

《VI》

Jungkook

" beep. beep. beep. "

Those same sounds kept repeating as I slowly opened my swollen eyes. My hands still interwined with yours. My eyes scanned you, tubes were everywhere. Tubes here and there, all of those needed just to keep you alive.

I timidly stood up as I arched my back and stretched my legs and arms. I yawned as I came near you.

" Goodmorning, love. It's been two months now.. " , I said as I kissed your forehead.

" I hope you're sleeping just fine. I have to go to work, Lisa will watch over you. I promise to be back at 8pm with your f-favorite food. " , I said as I slowly teared up.

Oh how I wish you'd talked back. I just wanted you to be awake, I want you to be in my embrace again, I want your lips attached to mine, I miss you so freakin' much.

I once again held your hand, and kissed it.

" I'll be back, love. " , I said.

Lisa was in the back, covering her mouth as she watched me being a helpless man. She also can't help but tear up.

I carefully placed back your hand on your side as I looked at you for the 100th time.

" I'll be going now, take care Lisa. And take good care of my Tzuyu. " , I said.

" Yeah, take care too. Enjoy work.. " , she said, blankly.

-

I parked my car on my garage as I went in our house. I headed to our bathroom to take a bath.

I looked at myself at the mirror as I sighed, I opened the drawer to get my shaving cream but instead, what I saw shocked me.

Pills, a bloody box cutter, our wedding picture and bunch of papers.

Tears.

Tears once again fell, as I couldn't prevent it from falling down. I slowly took one of the scattered papers as I saw your writings.

08.24.18

You had once again hurted me. You threw a plate at me causing my body to bleed. I had once again hurted myself as my head ache gets worst day by day. But, its okay. I'll endure this. I'll stay strong for us, I don't wanna lose you. I just want you to know how much I love you.

-Tzuyu

I couldn't help but cry, I felt so guilty and angry. How could I be so cruel?

I cried as I looked at the mirror..

" Tzuyu, I am so sorry. "