Say It (Aaron Carpenter FanFiction)

Chapter 9

Alys POV

I sat leaning against the door to my room my hands wrapoed around my knees with no tears or sobbs left inside me. Noone came to find me when I left, noone seems to care. There was a soft knock at my door, followed by a small voice filled with sympathy,  "Alyssa its Maddie please let me in" the voice from my door told me. I sighed and stood up slowly opening the door only to be attacked with a giant hug. Geez its not like I died and awaoke from the dead. "What do you want" I mumbled pushing her away, "you don't seem to care about me". " Aly please listen to me"

"The only reason nobody came to check on you is because I had to make them not to," she stopped staring at me with pleading eyes this fucking girl always gets to me "I know how you are when you are angry, all you would have done was push us away you would have hurt them and yourself" she contiinued, "I've known you since we were 3, you have always been like that, remember the first day of preschool, the first day we met we were coloring together and I took your crayon then you  took it broke it in half and pushed me into a wall," she said and slightly chuckled, "and the day in 7th grade when that kid told you you where pretty then said just kidding telling you that you were a slut and ugly, yiu punched him right in the jaw and broke his nose, and I had to calm you down bevause you had a panic attack in the corner of the classroom. And once you got home you attempted ..." she stopped catching herself knowing what the word does to me suicide the word that nobody wants to hear a 12 year old tried to do, but the scars are on me forever. " you know what, come on Aly I know you so well I only did it to protect you and them, because I know the issues you have" Maddie was right I have my severe anger issues that can never be fixed, and if she hadnt done what she knew to do they would be hurt and I might not be here now I might not be alive. "Im sorry" I whispered which was bately audible. I looked up to see Maddie with tears in her eyes she just hugged me our hugs are always very awkward, since she is tall, 5'10 to be exact and me only about 5'5. "Can you get Taylor" I asked she just nodden and walked away to get him. Once he was in my room he just stopped and stared at his shoes. "Taylor you didnt do anything im sorry but I need to tell you something," he looked up and nodded slowly as a signal to go on. "You are the only one I have told other than Maddie, not even Aaron, I have severe angere issues and I get very physical to others and even myself" I told him while showing him my arms removing the concealer the light pink marks that were barely visible. "Im clean 2 years and I just wanted to let you know that the only reason Maddie didnt let you up here is for that readon, she knew I would lash and hurt you, you can try to fight back but when im angry it just doesnt happen to work." A tear slipped down his  cheek as he pulled me in for a hug, his embrace was warm and soothing "Aly it is not your fault you cant handle it, there is something that I have wanted to do since I met you and now that you have  trusted me with your secret, I hope there is one spot for another one." And with that he ...........