Today is my second day at the university, you really won't understand university until you get into the situation, the university, in fact, is something that gives feelings of fear and insecurity , it's something that gives you joy and happiness , it's something that's so hard to understand , it's simply like a home, like a mother who is caring for her son or a father who is trying to protect his daughter , it's somehow a warm feeling that surrounds you by sweet and danger emotions , you meet new people today , and the next day they disappear and new people appear again, you meet them then they disappeared again , at university nothing is static , nothing is the same, today someone will laugh at you like you really their bestfriends, then the next day, the ones may never look at your face again , it's hard but it's the reality , in unversity you will learn that no one is saying the truth , you will learn that as you could lie and pretend to handle life, all people are the same just as you, no one is greater than you , no one is better than you , no one is sweeter than you , don't try to change yourself just because you are a good person and they are bad ones , never change who you are to be what people are , everyone has a way to live , everyone believes in a kind of life , everyone has rules for life , everyone can control its life , it's not a fact but it's the nature of human being .
FROM BLOSSOM'S DIARY
Actually I was shocked, firstly when I get in to the position, I was feeling joy, I wasn't coomfortable but it was my first time to get a forehead kiss from someone , and a hug like this, I still can't believe that already got a hug from a person who even doesn't know my name , it was quick and odd , weird , and kind of playful, it's my first time , someone was trying to make my hands warm and cozy , I felt a sweet feeling, but now I hate myself , I'm feeling guilty , I felt that I was in the wrong place with wrong people , I felt I did many mistakes , I shouldn't have let him hug me none make my hands warm, if just I didn't go to this place, and see the hypocrites people with four and more faces , I hate them, if just they don't hug other girls and touch them whenever they want, that makes me angrier right now , next time I will slap anyone who gonna hug me, because I am not such an easy girl .
After two days of waiting finally I saw Froy today, he was cute as usual, I couldn't actually take my eyes from him, because he was absolutely thunder and good-looking. But the worst thing I've heard today is that he has a girlfriend and he doesn't love her, anyway I come here to study not to fall in love, but I couldn't take my eyes from him none feeling happy when I see him, today he saw me but he didn't recognize me, he looked at my eyes but he didn't talk to me, his girlfriend was keeping hugging him and pushing his arms, but he seemed like he 's not interested ; I was feeling so angry, and I hated her, she was a bitch an easy girl who hugs whoever passing and she even sat above his best friend legs, and that was the most thing that makes me shocked, who are those people ? do they have feelings ? is that easy for them ? to hug whoever pass and whoever she saw ? they're trying to be open-minded but where are the open-minded here? I really don't understand .. then am I complicated now? then is that mean I've been complicated all my life!
Love is easy for them, they could kiss, I am still shocked because it was my first time to see a threesome kiss front of me and I was shocked, he is my crush with his two best friends" a boy and a girl " . At that time exactly I felt something is wrong.
The next day, she forgot absolutely everything, she went upstairs, with her messy hair, she wanted to buy milk and some kinds of stuff, suddenly she saw a black cat pointing at her eyes, ' this must be a smoky day ' she whispered!
everything is a lie, no one deserves her honest words none those little shiny smiles, she began to wonder where the problem lay exactly !? AND THEN A VOICE IN HER HEAD HITS REALLY DEEP,
''he doesn't want you, because he's not the right guy, yes he doesn't like you back because he's not the right one, because the right one for you will always like you so much, will always call you and ask about you ''
It was almost the holiday, yeah the first semester has ended, she felt all the emptiness in the world, she didn't recognize herself , she was looking at the stars , she started to lose her soul, she's not strong as before anymore, she left that place , she was absolutely hurt , feeling lost and sad ,she wanted to change things but she couldn't do so, her aware of responsibility kept growing since the last time when she went home alone ,she left her buggage and went to the train station , she avoided talking to people but at the same time, it was a fact of life, that to keep surviving you should talk to them even so, after she got to the train pretending to forget every single person who tends to hurt her despite she was honest all the time , but after one hour, two and even three, she decided to be another one, she decided to be herself, to love herself for who she's and to try not to please everyone to stay in her life .
