Blossom waked up at six o'clock, she washed her face, looked at the mirror for five minutes,
while talking to herself in front of it « I'm Blossom, I'm the best one, I can do it »
She didn't want to see her mother, she would rather exclaim that she can't be successful, she's
still young and irresponsible, thus, Blossom wanted to break a habit of being a weak person,
she moved alone to Beryl's house while holding her small bag, she felt ecstasy in going alone
in a half-dark road, full of fresh and cold air, her steps were completely uppity.
After reaching Beryl's house they had breakfast together, then they exercised again, but
suddenly her phone rang, her mother yelled at her, she makes sure to come back home before
her father realize the fact that she's not at home, Blossom was shocked, she felt freedom for
the first time, she made lies for the first time, it was all a deal of her hard work, she couldn't
betray Beryl's wishes, hopes, positive vibes, she was thinking about herself none her dreams,
at that moment, she received the call while Blossom was taking a shower, she only thought
that going back to home is the worst deal that could happen to her, she exits the call, she
collected her dress, makeup and all the kinds of stuff, she wore her shoes and she only wrote
one sentence: ' Beryl I can't go to the audition, you can go alone since we have separated our
lyrics parts from the song. '
She didn't apologize, she didn't cry, she thought that this problem influenced her more than
Beryl, ' the optimistic girl', she comes back home, her face was full of disappointment.' I trusted
in you ' she cried' Darling, no one knows your father as you do .' she said, ' I told you from the
beginning to not make friendships none participate in this audition .'
Blossom meanwhile, was still thinking about what Beryl said that night ' if people stop you from
the first step, you will never do great things.'
She could sleep none eat, she was a body with a lost soul, she was a piece of broken ice,
she ignored her mother almost three days, her father almost seven days, and her brother the
rest of the summer, day by day, she started to realize that none the audition either her
daydreams in Sydney were destined for her. She returned the old Blossom, which enjoys eating
chocolate, looking at the sky and reading books, she didn't know what to do nor where to go,
Beryl traveled after the shock, she didn't talk to her, but she only saw Blossom once to give her a letter, even
though she gave her a sincere letter full of feelings and tears, it was the only thing Blossom could
do for Beryl.
After two months, Blossom started to carry her luggage, she will finally go to university, it was
four hours far by the train, she hated that, she lost her last hope to get a ticket to Sydney, see
her prince charming there, the audition, and her little hopes. everything broke, and nothing
stays the same, she cried, screamed and even told her dad that she gonna suicide if she didn't
go where she wants, but none of those things have worked for her, she was standing herself,
weak, alone, she was looking for the hand who was ready to fly, but she recognized that her
the weak heart was pretending the bravery, with countable tears in a rainy cold day she said
goodbye to her dreams, hoping to not dream again, hoping to not meet anyone again, and the
the important thing, she promised herself to not fall in love with any prince charming again none
making friendships with people.
From Blossom's diary that morning when she was at the train :
As I was going upstairs, I was looking at the walls, may they knew about my scars, fears, as I was going upstairs I didn't wish anything, I wanted a ticket to Sydney none the audition none prince charming, as I was going upstairs I wished if I could come back at least with healing the half of my heart, as I was going upstairs I remembered the place Antony was always waiting for me, the road that made me fall in love with him, as I was going out I saw the birds, those who sang with me and Beryl, the laughs, the cries, the hugs, all goes, and I'm not asking for more love or friendship none goals or dreams .., I'm still that far from the fulfilled girl I always wished to be, I was walking with no predictions, for the first time, I was walking with an empty mind.
When she arrived, the weather was so cold and windy, she didn't get comfortable with the
weather, she opened the door of a new home, she entered a new house with no feelings, there
were three girls living at it, she doesn't know any of them, her father talked to the owner of the
house, he was extremely nice and her father liked the way he looks after the girls, so his feelings
of insecurity disappeared, she went in, put her luggage and all things inside, she gets out and
wanted to say goodbye to her parents, but she wasn't feeling any happy nor sad, she can't
realize how things moved that fast, she can't even realize where exactly she is, she kissed her
father's cheek, she hugged her mother whose was absolutely sad leaving her precious baby in a
a house full of strangers, she told her: ' Blossom take care of yourself and fall in love none
make deep friendships '
She nodded her head and went back to the house, everything was cold and unfamiliar, she
organized her room, and slept for two hours, closed her room in order to ignore all the girls
living there, she didn't talk to anyone for almost three days, then the day finally comes, the day
when she finally will go to university.
From Blossom's diary that night :
Tomorrow is going to be my first day there, I'm a little excited but more nervous, it's like the feeling that caught me when I want to begin reading a new book, it's like discovering aa new world, or like realizing a new idea ..a new chapter of my life will begin tomorrow, I'm not wishing anything, I'm not expecting anything, I don't hope for anything, maybe this is my only way to survive, maybe this is my only way that can balance my feelings and all. I ignore questions like ' what am I gonna do after? ' ' what will I do after ?' ' what my goal is ' ..... these questions won't change my life so I let go of them all.
