THE AGE OF LOVE

CHAPTER 5

Over the past week my life has been so heavy as plumb.
With every long dark night passed by, i am more deeper then usual in my daily thoughts, the way i walk in the every day life, an overall sadness and hurt.
Funny how ,I even start to change a lot in my behavior due to the feelings i have after each and every night.
That agony I am living for loosing this mysterious prince, I even refused to eat or have any contact with outside world.
Today is difficult and i am overwhelmed by the multitude of dreams and images which are passing true my eyes, is like all of this spinning and turning inside my head it starts crossing the line of the sanity.
Not being able anymore to distinguish real life from visions and illusions ,all this is taking over me, is controlling my senses even my judgement become cloudy.
Sometime i start to see many things as if flashes from memories of years maybe even centuries, like, pictures framed on a baroque castle walls, oats and pacts i have taking part of ,among brave chevaliers with a big burgundy cross symbol on their chests, people bowing and some even praising me and my family ,murders and terrible public decapitation of a noble family and the most amazing fact is that always on the back of all this i see the glorious eastern orthodox church in her beauty and splendor .
I wake up from my visions or more like dreams, with the smell of blood in my nose and a excruciating pain enveloping all my body and soul, this feeling of unimaginable sorrow and despair, that feeling of nonhuman disappear and uncontrollable lost of the loved ones ,and all this intensified since i meet that man,his impact is purely insane.
Being still with that deep grief on my mind i start to run out of the house wherever the steps will take me.
I decided to leave from the grief ,from the pain ,from the fear of being alive in a world without my love and the most important without my family ,tears are rolling down on my cheeks, my eyes are burning and my body is shaking uncontrollable once is meeting the cold air of the night in to a street so quiet. All is heard are my empty feet touching the wet ground.
One by one images of Demir being harmed by the cold sharped blades of multiple swards, him falling lifeless at the dark red muddy on a battle field ground and his black beautiful horse who is blowing hot air over him as if trying to warm him and give him the breath of life, offering his animalistic life to his master once more, an imagine so dramatic framed by this delirium despair.
By now i am fully awake and trying to just stop this pain of the life i have, so I climbed near the white iron balustrade of the bridge between the two ancient valleys.
Before entering the Bicaz forest, formes a dark opening which now you can here the birds of the night singing a melody of fear and lost echoing in to the atmosphere.
The despaire brought me here , looking down to the quiet gray water were the moon is reflecting her beauty with just one thought ,,,let all this grief and lost stops now ,right in this moment".
Suddenly , in all that state of madness I could distinguish the siluet of the man from library, he was far ,very far away and I still can't see his face but this time a sound like a whisper came from his mouth with all the love and desperation as you my dear people can imagine:
-Ana ,my beloved Ana don't do it, I am here now, I am with you, don't do it my Ana just wait for me, you promised!!!!!!The siluet said pleading.
-Demir,is that you!????No ,it can not be, this is the real world, is not a dream!!!!I said to my self crying and in a delirium state.
-Enough, this must stop here!!!!!No more pain!!!!!I said ferm and with that at once i jumped over the white iron without second thought in a delirium way ,right in to the abyss.
Finally i am flaying to freedom were i can meet my family ,my Demir,now i am ready to step on the land of no life, just waiting for the time to hold on my dear ones.
The last thought was me in to the loving arms of my sweet prince for eternity,finally togheder.
The cold air is piercing true my body as millions of pricking needles, which makes me scream out in pain .
In that moment all i could be aware of was that the siluet jumped after me instantly without any hesitation or a slight thought of measuring the severity of the moment.
He jumped right away and wrapping his body around mine creating a shelter for the piercing cold air and with our interlocked bodies we hit strongly the iced water .
He must have taken the full strength of the impact coz i found myself at the bottom of the water but still alive and the pain of the fall is not felt by my body.
I don't even know how this is possible because is more like a shadow then an actual Demir flesh and bones.
I am floating there into the deep river and my body became one with the water ,i am seeing the green leaves of the big plants rapping as blanket true out my body ,the white night gown manually embroidered by me at a small age is now a blend with the gray surroundings.
In all this time all i could feel was his body figure not loosen my own, he didn't let go of me and for the first time ever i wasn't alone, in my daying hour he come with me .
I don't know how to explain this , but despite the ice cold water ,his embrace made me feel warm, he was protecting me from all the predators' hidden into the deep of the river, keeping still my body vitally stable, until the time approaches for the last breath .
Slowly my body is collapsing and the water filled my lungs which lead to my last breath, I stepped now onto the unconscious phase, were i start to see a bright light were no pain , nor sorrow exists is just my dear father smiling. Him holding me in his arms as small girl singing a beautiful lullaby, I am laughing ,is the crystalline sound of innocence .
The image suddenly shifts and i see how a priest in his white and gold holy dress holding a cross ,placing on my head a crown of white lemon flowers in front of the holly altar ,is my wedding day, mine and Demir ,my beautiful enigmatic prince, I am ready to go to them now.
And with that ,all become a slight feeling of surrender and the last thing i felt was the salty taste on my lips ,so beautiful way to leave this world, while being inside the arms of the man you love the most,Demir a ghost lover.
Right in that moment , out of nowhere a force like a thunder was crossing true the water ,reaching directly to the place i am sinking,and with one move it cuts the leaves of the plants and releasing my body ,strange arms taking my waste and bringing my body quickly to the surface.
I am in an extreme situation and this man is placing my numb body on the ground ,covering it with his dark coat and turn me in one side and at once i started spitting all the water from my lungs, I am continues coughing and spitting all the remaining water.
I start slowly to come in to my senses and i became fully aware of my surroundings, I opened my eyes and what I saw was shocking, non other then the face of Mister. Tudor Vladimir the director of the library.
Behind him i saw in a fast but yet elegant run Mister.Lupescu with a bunch of blankets, and at my left side was my friend Mara with her hands still on my chest ,so heavy it smashed few of my ribs.
The pain of that makes me scream loudly, then Mister. Vladimir took her by the fists and stopped her.
Cracking bones sounds could be heard and with that Mara came quickly to her senses and remove her branched hands from my chest in an instant, and with that the pain reduced and i can breathe normally, then I heard them saying:
-Enough Mara, you are harming her!!!said Mst.Vladimir ,while still holding her heavy hands.
-Oh, no what have i done, I hurt her!!!!Mara said in sorrow and blame but fast removing her hands out.
-Is fine, you are in control now and she is okay, few broken ribs but alive!!!!Mst.Vladimir said in a calm tone.
-Thanks God we've came in time to save this foolish girl!!!!!Mst.Lupescu said while covering me in the blankets.
-We were expecting her to do this, we knew it but we preferred to ignore it, so we are also to be blame for this!!!!!Mara said with tears in her eyes.
-Now is not the time for regrets, is started already, we all know it, is too late, they are coming for her!!!!Mister.Lupescu said with fear.
-We are near her and honor our word and ready to face everything for her!!!!Mst.Vladimir said with pride.
-But we need all the help and support we can get ,besides ,Demir will be here soon!!!!Mst.Lupescu said firm.
-We need to invoque Matei ,without him were nothing, just an easy pray ! Mara said while drying my body, since the mans were placed with their back, facing me.
While all this conversation meant nothing to me i was amazed by how come all of them are here, and how Mist.Vladimir a big director had just saved me and dealing in a strange way with others, like even they are friends and knowing each other since forever????
Mst.Lupescu took me in his strong arms and brought me to the car ,he placed me on the back seat while i still keep silence, I haven't said a word since they rescue me, near me Mara, came and hold me tight to her chest.
-I am so sorry Ana,i hurt you, I didn't mean it ,fragile girl ,i care for you so much and none of us will dare touch even you're shadow, imagine hurting you on purpose, one day you will understand us!!!!!she said in a soft voice.
I keep my silence and just staring at a fixed point lost in my mind were i couldn't understand what's happening, what is real ,what is dream, whom are this people i consider friends and my boss why they are so familiar and acting strange!!!????
Mister Lupescu and Mst.Vladimir they were barely talking in a normal day and now they are so closed .
Mst.Lupescu is sitting on the passenger side and Mst.Vladimir is driving the car.
On the back sit is me , hold by a moved Mara, silence is settled, nobody saying a word, what happened today had marked everyone in such a manner that words don't have their place.
Into that silence when everybody was in deep thoughts and worries, I gained my posture, I look around then direct in Mara's eyes and i ask her in a madness of way:
-Whom is Demir Brancoveanu for me Ana Constantin??????
And with that all of them started to look to each other in a combination of fear and frustration.
-Not now my dear ,let us reach to the hospital, make you stable and you will know everything!!!!!Mister.Vladimir said in a bossy way, and with that everything was calming.
I placed my head on Mara's shoulder and i start watching the fugitive lights in the dark out of the window, and with a more trembled voice i said to all of them:
-Thank you for bringing me back from the claws of death in to the life, you're rescue will not be forgotten by me!!!!i said with the feeling of gratitude.
-We had a very big help from someone who loves you true dear child ,even if his not in this world ,yet , but know he is always there on every path you take!!!Said Mst.Lupescu
-Yes,i agree this never happened before , i thought even it wasn't possible to interfere in our world but yet again the powerful love has no rules!Mst.Vladimir said.
And with that we reach to the door of the hospital ,Mst.Lupescu took me out and placed my body on the stretcher bed placed near the door ,then Mara start shouting to the staff:
-We have an emergency ,somebody help us ,please, this young girl accidentally fall in to Bicaz river!!!!!She said while a doctor already reaches to me and start the examination.
-How this happened dear, can you tell me???Do you remember anything????the doctor asked me while traying to open my gown.
At once ,right away Mist.Vladimir looses his control and he grabbed the doctor hand and stopped him going further and with a soft calculated voice he said :
-Do not touch her gown or dare to lay you're eyes on her skin ,we prefer a female to undress her.
-Thank you ,Doctor!!!!!he continue ,in a possessive way and removing him from my side.
-And please, someone call Professor Doctor. Dragosi Dragomir, Thank you???Mst.Lupescu said to the nurse, while the doctor still shocked by their requests.
-And please,3 coffees for us ,Thank you!!!Mara said in a hilarious mode.
All of them were just traying to make me feel better and get the care i need and now after they gave me a sleeping injection.
I stepped on the land of dreams with the feeling of emptiness and wonder inside to know and discover more about the fake world i lived in since now, and the most taunting thought is the fact, that I had to see again those beautiful eyes of Demir.
His look is penetrating the far Est corner of my soul, I am created for him and I am irrevocable in love with an illusion of a man, prince Demir Brancoveanu , a noble man by day and a ruler of gipsys by night....
Hey waith, how do i even know that !?