The Ghosts of my past.

May 28th, 2009-I Never Thought

I never thought love would hate me so much;

My heart feels like it’s bleeding.

I feel an invisible knife go through my chest;

As if it attempts to stop its own beating.

I throw up my supper;

And observe my ribs in the mirror.

I’ve been getting skinnier since you left;

God, how I wish you were here.

I cry silently to myself at night;

With no attempt to sleep..

I know I won’t get any tonight.

I’ll just sit in the dark and weep.

God knows you’re not thinking of me;

And God knows I know it too.

We all know you’re not thinking of anything but yourself.

And there’s nothing anyone else can do.

I tried so hard;

To make it work out this time;

But you worked harder; against me;

I guess now.. I’ll just be fine.

Leave me to my death bed now;

The knife still plunged in my chest;

Let the blood soak my body, drowning what’s left of me.

And we all know; he’s never going to detest.