I hovered over the message undecided if I should open it or delete it. Fuck it, i thought as i pressed it open and read the message
D- i know you won't believe this but i really did love you x
I sighed and felt my heart break a little bit more.i replied
B- love isnt cheating on someone and then moving on like it was nothing
Within seconds she replied
D- please can you just let me explain
B- i don't know
D- please and if after you still hate me i will leave and never try again
B- im free right now
D- i'll be at your house soon
I locked my phone and instantly regretted agreeing to see her.
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Knock knock
That's her. I slowly walked to the door, combing through my hair as I did. I opened to door and was met with her eyes, they were filled with sorrow and hope at the same time, i scanned her face trying to read what was going through her head but all I could think about was how much I had missed her. I shook the thoughts out of my head and guided her to the living room. We sat next to each other, facing the other with a fair amount of distance between us. It's sad really how we ended up like this, my thoughts were interrupted by demi,
"Umm.. I don't really know how to start this but.. Um.. I was rehearsing what to say the whole way here but now that your in front of me, everythings gone" she fiddled with her fingers showing how nervous she was but continued " i just want to say how sorry I am not only for destroying everything that was good between us but for hurting you, from the bottom of my heart, im so fucking sorry" she paused again "the night that it happened was the worst mistake of my life and i know that you'll never forgive me for it but i need to explain... so I was at a party and this guy was flirting with me the whole night and i kept pushing him away but towards the end of the night when I was waiting for my car to pick me up he came outside and then everything happened so fast and then before i could think we were kissing and we ended up at his house and yeah...'' I felt tears falling down my face as I heard how easily demi gave our relationship away. She had tears falling too, allowed my head to fall as she continued again "I know how much you hate me right now and honestly I hate myself for letting it happen, you are the only thing in my life that has ever made me feel at home and happy but I destroyed that and lost you"
A couple of minutes passed of me collecting myself and thinking about what I should say, I lifted my head and met her eyes "you know what the saddest thing is, i could never hate you as much as I want to, I just can't, when you told me what you did I could only blame myself... I thought I was the reason, maybe I wasn't enough. I want what we had back but i would never be able to trust it, trust you.." she nodded'' I know that we could never be together again and i hate that i did that but I just want you to know that I will forever love you and in years from now if we are maybe friends i would be happy" a small smile fell upon her face as she ended her sentence. She placed her hand on my thigh and started to walk towards the door "im sorry beccy" and with that, the door closed and the tears that I held back erupted into sobbs.
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The next day...
Today I had agreed to go out for dinner with one of my best friends, harry (styles). Whenever we are seen together the public automatically thinks we're dating which is not true. It was now 4pm and we were meeting at 6pm so i decided to get ready.
I kept my outfit and makeup casual and received a text from harry saying he was outside whenever i was ready. I grabbed my purse and phone before leaving.
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We had finished paying and were about to leave, we opened the doors to leave and were swarmed by paparazzi.
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TMZ- Beccy and harry dating?
for some reason my mind immediately went to demi and what she would think...
