soft boy

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inabber:
My mum isn't my biggest supporter, if I'm being honest. She struggled when I came out as bisexual, and I should've even kept my mouth shut then. She never silenced her thoughts on fags, even after I came out. The clothing was just the bit on top, y'know?
No son of hers was meant to be gay, let alone dress girly as well.

jamesmarriottig:
Fraser you aren't a fag.
Just ignore her.
She's a stuck up, right-winged cow.

inabber:
I try so hard James. I promise. I try not to listen to her.
But it gets too much.

jamesmarriottig:
It's okay.
You can talk to me whenever you need, alright?
Whenever she says those things you can always message me.
Just remember that she's wrong.
Promise.
You don't have to tell me anything else. Only say as much as you feel comfortable talking about.

inabber:
You make me feel comfortable.
You make me feel like I can talk about anything.
But it scares me.
We've not even been friends for a week James.
And I already trust you this much?

jamesmarriottig:
There's nothing wrong with that.
I trust you so much too. If that makes you feel safer.

inabber:
Can I get to the part you wanted to know?

jamesmarriottig:
Only for you. Don't do this for me.

inabber:
It's not, I promise.

jamesmarriottig:
Okay then x

inabber:
So I started wearing more "feminine" clothes a couple months after coming out to her. Nothing major, just lighter colours, a bit of pastel here and there, oversized sweaters ext.
It wasn't even that girly.
But she went mental.
She told me that she had a son, not a daughter. Why would I want to change that.
Im not even transgender though. I tried explaining it was only clothes.
Not that being transgender is bad!
Fuck
It keeps coming out all wrong

jamesmarriottig:
Hey, it's alright. You're doing great.
I get what you're saying. You didn't feel like you're not gendered correctly, only that you wanted to dress differently
Besides, clothes don't have a gender anyway. Why should it matter what you wear?

inabber:
Exactly.
She made me stop wearing it. But I felt awful in "guy" clothes. The clothes I wore gave me a little bit of confidence and acceptance, seeing as i was never going to get it from her.
I tried to secretively wear them, but she saw me once. It was awful. I was on the train, didn't think she was, and she started shouting how much of a disgrace I was. That boys were born to be masculine and strong, not to be weak and feminine like I am.
It was horrible.
Never been on the train since.
But I thought I shouldn't be the only person to accept how I was. So I made my Instagram.
She doesn't know. My dad does though.
He's accepting though. He helps me get some of my clothes and stops my mum from finding out by washing them and hiding my clothing packages from my mum.
Don't be mad at my dad.
I'm being honest when I say he's lovely.
Please James.
James?
I've scared you off haven't I?
I knew I would.

jamesmarriottig:
Not at all.
I'm glad your dad accepts it, at least someone in your household does. And he sounds decent enough.
You're clothes make you look gorgeous sweetheart. I'm glad you decided not to hide it xx
You deserve the world. Not a shit "mother" like that.

inabber:
Really?

jamesmarriottig:
Honestly.
You're gorgeous. You should post more pictures.
Of course, when you have the time.

inabber:
I'll post some soon.
For you 💛

jamesmarriottig:
Bless.
You're so sweet.
How could she be so horrible to you.