His Voice

Tour Nerves and Pills

(A/N):

This song has been stuck in my head for so long. It gave me a great idea for the next chapter!!

Taehyung's POV:.

I woke up next to Jeongguk later that night. I remember the fight, I remember everything, but it's still too much. I need to work on myself and my health before I can be able to work on a relationship. We can still be best friends, but nothing more until I'm mentally stable. I look over at him sleeping. Waking up to that everyday is something to look forward to, but does he really love me as much as he says he does? Does he love the idea of me or was it just a way to clean up the argument? He did say he's afriad of losing me. I guess I shouldn't think this way. I should take everything with a grain of salt and look for the signs before anything else. I reached over and tickled Guk's chin. His eyes fluttered open and he gave me his bunny smile. "Hi Tae," he said moving in to kiss me, but I put my fingers to his lips. He looked at me confused.

"What happened earlier was not a proposal. We aren't dating," I explained.

"B-but we both-"

"I know," I started, interrupting him. "I know, but I'm not stable enough to date anyone right now."

"Tae it's okay, I'll help you."

"No, Jeongguk," I said sternly. "I need to do this myself. I need to learn to love myself before I can begin to love someone else. Isn't that our message? You should know that Guk," I told him. He sighed, there was nothing to say anymore. He was right earlier... The kiss shouldn't have happened. Neither of us were ready for that. I got up off his bed and walked out the room. Before I shut the door I said one more thing. "Oh, and Jeongguk,' he looked at me. "I don't want things to change between us so please... Let's just act natural. Okay?" He nodded. So at that I closed his door, went to my room, took my medicine, and laid down to sleep. I hadn't rested all week, this would be the best time to catch up on some sleep. I'll sleep tonight and start everything anew tomorrow.

.:Jeongguk's POV:.

I didn't sleep that night much less the following ones. I understood where he was coming from and I don't want to force him, but at the same time I don't know if he'll manage on his own. I know he's taking his meds and resting now, but I can't help but feel like he's drowning himself in self pity. I know it's selfish, but I feel like if he continues this way, we'll never get a chance. I want him to learn to love himself for his own mental well-being, but also for my heart. My heart continues to shatter everytime we make eye contact. I obviously continue staring, searching his eyes for something... For some kind of confirmation that he's okay, but all I get is him tearing his eyes away as if this tension has no affect on him. The other members can feel the tension and it's clear they think it's just tour nerves. They've been calling meetings lately and this is the 4th one in the past two days. Today is the last day in the dorm. Everyone is packed up and ready to go in the morning, but it seems like no one is really all that focused. It makes sense considering the day we land we have a concert rehearsal not to mention the actual concert itself. This is why they gave us a week of free time. So much for using it wisely.

.:Taehyung's POV:.

We landed not too long ago and we were given room keys. Normally all seven of us have separate rooms, but for this particular hotel there were very numbered rooms. Most were filled up already from fans wanting to be close to the stadium we were performing at. So we had to share rooms with other members. Thankfully I wasn't with Jeongguk. I don't know if I'd be able to handle that. The roommates went like this: Jeongguk and Yoongi; Namjoon, Jin, and Hoseok; and Jimin and I.