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ex pt. 4 | dreaming

woah, its been the 4th chapter. i impress myself.

it's gonna be short i promise.

so yeah. i was failed with being moving on from blue and that was really horrible. i can't even fvckin' stop thinking 'bout him.

i was dream about me and him being never break and still in our relationship for many times and it makes me really miss him a lot and regret my own decision.

and until one day; i was dreamt about him one more time.

i was dreaming about when we are going back together again. like- you know- we are going back to each other anymore.

i wasn't that happy on my own dream when he is come to my grandma house and i was told everyone that he is my boyfriend.

after that; i'm realize that he isn't what i want anymore.

i'm just being stuck all the time because i felt sorry for break his heart because that decision.

i felt sorry for broke his heart but never felt sorry because my decision.

he is not what i want after all. we've been broken into pieces, and can't be together anymore. our relationship in the past is just a memories for us to learnt, not to be regreted and wanna come back.

he is already move on. happy with his own life. having a nice new girlfriend. and i was still nothing because i'm being stuck with my regretness.

i just realize that i had learn enough from him. we are done and that's really okay. he is nice so am i should be.

i will never forget our memories in the past. but life must go on, i want it or not.

i'm just gonna try to accept everything again and enjoy myself. he isn't around me and that was super fine. he isn't my boyfriend anymore and that's okay.

i just need to accept it all. learn to let it go, just don't wanna push myself too hard and let the time healed me.

that's it.