Be My Wings (boy x boy)

Chapter 13: Step by Step

Lucas pov;

Standing on my front porch i smile hearing Ryan rambles on about his insecurities while planning our date until he said the question. We are moving too fast. I'm not ready. Its just yesterday i got rejected by his friend, we just had our first date and now he asked me to be his boyfriend. My heart need a break from all this.

A few moments of silents and us staring into each other faces after his question. How can i say that i'm not ready to him? He has been so nice to me. He seems sincere. But i don't want to rush things. What if he just went through a phase and left me once he's done with it? What if he just feel pity towards me because i got rejected by his friend?

Watching his face change from smiling to frowning because i didn't answer his question, I decided to just say what's on my mind.

"I'm sorry Ryan, but.."

"Its okay. I know i'm not the one you want. Thats fine. Bye Lucas." He cuts me off and turn to walk to his car hurriedly. I watch him get in his car and drive away. I didn't get the chance to explain it to him.

No, i want you but i need two or three more dates before we decide to be boyfriends. I want to make sure you are serious and won't regret it. We need to think it through. You are getting famous now, there will be obstacles and challenges in the future. Are you ready to face it together with me? Or will you just up and left when it has become too much for you too handle?

I get inside, go straight to my room and try to reach him by phone and text but his phone is off. I even consider calling Jordan to ask if he's home but decided against it. I'm too embarrassed to even talk to Jordan again.

After 20 minutes of trying to reach Ryan, i think it is time to sleep and i'll try again tomorrow.

The next day

I woke up the next day and get my day going as usual but my mind keep straying to him. Thinking how can i reach him other than by phone. Should i search for him at blackwings house? Or his family house? If i go to blackwings house there is a high possibility i will run to Jordan. That is something i obviously want to avoid. But i'm not ready to meet his family yet. It's too early to introduce myself to them. How can i introduce myself anyway? Boyfriend? Will they believe me? They might think i'm some crazy fans stalking him.

Many questions are lurking in my mind. By the time i decided to just go with it and get in my car, i chickened out. Lets just try by phone first okay. I get out of the car and go straight to my room to start calling him again. Unfortunately i can't reach him. His phone is off. So i keep leaving him voice mails and text messages. But suddenly i feel like a creep. So i stop. He will think i'm crazy for leaving him this many missed calls and messages. I sent him one last text message saying 'daddy, please..' and thats it. If he really want me. He will eventually come around and snatch my heart again.

That night Lisa invited me to a party hosted by her friend, Gabriel. Of course i refused because i prefer lying in my bed reading some books. But she insist to pick me up later. So i agreed to go but with one condition that she won't force me to drink alcohol. I want to stay safe because when you have alcohol in your system it will be dangerous

She arrived earlier than i expected. I thought girls always late. She rang the doorbell and i invited her in.

"Why are you so early Lisa? You said to be ready at 9 and you are 2 hours early." I whined while following her to my room.

"I came early to dress you up. I bet you don't know what to wear right? Lets see what we can pull from your closet." She said excitedly going straight to my closet and pull out some clothes.

"Excuse me bitch? I already know what to wear and please stop messing up my clothes." I said pretending to be offended. She stop and turn to look at me.

"Alright, show me."

"Show you what? I'm not into women. You know that." She can't keep her serious face anymore and burst out laughing. I wait for her to settle down while smirking.

"You are so funny Lucas. Stop that or we are gonna be late to the party. Show me the outfit ho. Please keep your penis to yourself, i doubt that thing is for women anyway." She said still gasping from the previous laugh. I gasp and give her dirty look with my eyes. Then i go to the closet and show her what i'm gonna wear to the party. She look at me disbelieve of my choice.

"What? Its a normal white shirt and jeans. Whats wrong with it?" I ask her and that make her eyes bigger.

"Okay enough. You can't go to a party looking like that. Let me in ho." She said pushing me aside to look deeper in the closet. Too bad i'm out already. So i step back and watch her pull out a gray shirt with black jeans that seems too small for me. I didn't know i had that. Lastly she pull out a blue leather jacket. She throw it in my arms and told me to change.

I step in my bathroom to change and surprisingly the jeans fit me. It strangled my lengs and butt. I think it will left me with blue legs from the lack of blood flow. I step out of the bathroom to show her but she is busy arranging something on my bed.

"Please tell me those are for you. I don't want to wear makeup Lisa. Its gonna make me uncomfy with all the heat going around." I whine again. Pleading her to not put it on me.

"Its just a light and simple makeup. I promise." She told me to sit in front of her and start to work on my face. After finishing my makeup i look in the mirror and shocked at how different i look. She work on my eyes the most and it makes my eyes pop up even more. "Alright, lets go have some fun Lucas." She said excitedly.