13 Songs (Harry Styles fanfic)

7- I Wish

~2 weeks later~

“Mate... you okay?” Zayn walked into the room, gave me one look and then had a surprised expression on his face. I looked down to find that my sandwich was pummelled on my plate and looked like a it had gone through a blender.

“Nothing... I’m fine,” I said with a tinge of anger.

“Haz, you are clearly not okay. Is Chris still bugging you?” Liam said tentatively over his shoulder. Louis sat next to me and Niall also ate his own sandwich hungrily from the other side of the island.

“I guess... It’s just hard seeing her every day and she still won’t tell me who the guy she was with was.” I had explained what I had done to the boys- they weren’t exactly happy with my decision but they felt sorry for me afterwards because I told them about this ‘Sam’ guy. No one made any mention to Christina about it though. If she found out that we all knew about Sam, there was no telling what she’d do.

Niall nodded with his mouth still full of food.

“Don’t worry Harry. She’ll come around.”

“I just can’t bear to think of her with another guy... it’s really hard,” I rolled my head onto my arms so that the boys couldn’t see my face.

At first, Chris’s face was expressionless when I had told her that we should break up. Then she burst into laughter! She thought that I was joking... I just looked at her with a serious face. Eventually she got the hint. She had asked why; I could only tell her that I believed she was cheating on me, unless she told me who she was seeing on those frequent week nights. Chrissy burst into tears but still refused to tell me... so for now we were on a break.

It was hard not being able to hold her in my arms and cuddle her closely. I missed all of that. It was even harder because she still lived in the house with us and I had to see her every day.

“Guys I think that I’m going to just go to my room for awhile...” I said solemnly and got up slowly from the bar stool. The boys echoed several ‘bye mate’ and ‘see ya’s’ before I exited the kitchen. When I closed the door to my room, my emotions overwhelmed me. There was no doubt that I was jealous. Jealous that Chrissy wasn’t with me, and that she was most likely in the arms of Sam now instead of mine. I missed her so much but there was nothing that I could do! I felt alone and helpless. Is this what a real broken heart feels like? It sure felt empty, cold, endless, and despairing. I really had loved Christina... so it killed me when she wouldn’t tell me the truth. After many tears, tissues, and pacing I had finally composed myself to get back into the real world for a while. I opened the door and walked down  the hallway, only to be stopped in my tracks. I heard crying... from Chrissy’s room! Her soft sobs were heard even from my side of the door. I would have gone in and comforted her but she needed her own space too. Sighing and taking another step forward I hustled into the living room where Liam was watching television by himself.

“Hey Harry! You alright? You were in there for quite a while...” He said looking up at me sympathetically. I didn’t want his sympathy though; it just made me feel vulnerable and weak.

“Yeah I’m fine. But I am also really hungry,” I said realizing that I never finished my sandwich and was currently starving.

“Come on then, I can make you something then.” Liam got up and I followed him into the kitchen.

“Where’d the lads go?” I said while fixing my hair and sitting down on the familiar bar stool at the island.

“Niall went to Nando’s... again; and Zayn and Louis are with the girls.” I nodded as Liam worked away on the countertop.

“So...” Liam cut me off.

“Harry there’s something I have to tell you.”My gaze shifted warily to Liam. He sounded wary and unsure of what he was about to say, but at the same time he seemed calm and collected. “while you were in your room... um, Christina came and talked to me.” I looked down at the granite so that he wouldn’t see how irritated I was at this recurring topic. “She misses you Harry.” My eyes shot back up to meet Liam’s hazel eyes, that were looking at me sweetly.

“How do you know that?”

“Because she told me... She is also really upset that you broke up with her. Said that it wasn’t fair and everything.” I huffed and shuffled my feet awkwardly.

“Did she tell you WHY I broke up with her?”

“We all know... it was because you thought she was cheating on you. Chris told me about it and... well, she wasn’t cheating.” I sighed.

“Then who was he?”

“Harry... I don’t know how to tell you this mate.” Liam gripped the bridge of his nose with his fingers and thought. I just watched him intensely, waiting for an explanation. Liam let out a sigh before spilling what he knew.

“She was tutoring her autistic brother.”