Don't tell my best friend.

11- New begging

A horrible headache woke me up in the middle of the night. I walked to the kitchen served myself a big glass of cold water. And I just stood there, thinking about everything that had happened. Meeting him, kissing him, sleeping with him, starting to like him and then being caught. It started giving me headaches. I walked upstairs and covered my windows making sure the sunlight wasn't going to wake me up any time soon.

I was into a deep sleep when a soft knock brought me back. I decided it ignore it, probably was for the best and whoever was knocking at my door would leave me alone.

The door creaked and I saw my sister taking a peek inside, she must have found my current condition depressing because she opened the door all at once.

"You have a visitor," she said looking at the mess I was. "Visitors?" "Yes, as in more than one, they are waiting for you downstairs, you should go. She gave me a judgy look, I woke up, saw my fucked up reflection, ran to the bathroom, washed my face and brushed my teeth and walked downstairs, where I found the whole gang waiting for me.

"Hey" Lea said from where she was sitting. My mom was also there looking at me, she gave her a quick nod, asked us if we wanted something to drink, but we both said we were fine.

"How are you?" She said looking at me, "I've been better, yourself?" I asked her.

"Good, we need to talk" She said looking around "Here?" "No, somewhere else, can you leave?" She asked looking at my joggers, sweater, and sneakers, "sure". "I'll be back later mom" I screamed as we walked out.

She started walking and I followed her. We stood quiet for a moment before she started talking. "We always said that nothing will break us apart, that no guy will come in between us or any shit like that. We pinky promised it. '' She said as she walked.

"You are right and I have failed both of us" "We both have. I was rude to you and you bang my boyfriend on my back, literally" She said joking. "I know, and I still don't get how are you still talking to me". "Because I'm the fucking boss and because I promised you I wouldn't let a guy break us apart, so I'm being faithful to my word" "You are being a better friend than I have" I said as I walked and counted my steps. "That might be right for a while, I did abandon you several times, not just this time and not always because of him"

She stopped and we were in front of an ice cream parlor, we walked in and she ordered Ice cream for both of us "Bring us two services one with two spoons of strawberry and one of dulce de leche and for me bring me two spoons of pistachios and macadamia" She said giving the server a big smile before taking a table for both of us.

"I love you and I'm sorry, I don't know what has gotten into me, why did I do that to you, it hurts like hell, knowing you hate me for being so slutty" I was sobbing, tears were treating to come out "I don't hate you, I was pissed because you both kept things hidden from me and trust me it hurts, knowing that your two favorite people were banging behind your back, but the weirdest thing is, I get it. I get why you two clicked, I get why you saw each other, I get why he likes you and why you like him back.

"What do you mean" I said but we were interrupted by the guy who brought us our Ice cream with a soft smile, to whom we smiled as he left us.

"I mean..." She said as she took a spoon and savored her Ice cream "You two share things I would never be able to share with him, you two like weird things that I'm not a fan of and somehow it all makes sense. Trust me, it took me a whole weekend to think about it. I don't hate either of you. But the whole thing took me by surprise."

"Again, I'm sorry I shouldn't have put you in this situation" "Yet, here we are, talking about my boyfriend, well our boyfriend?" She asked I could feel my face burning up.