Because This Is My First✔️

🕹️004🕹️

Chapter Four : Because This Is My First Relationship.
P.O.V. : Hinata Shoyo.
Date : XX-XX-XX

After practice i returned home, took a shower, had dinner and went straight to my room after playing with my little sister for a bit. The moment i plopped my head down on that pillow everything that happened today all came flooding back in making it rather difficult to sleep. I don't know what to do about me and Kenma  or about me and Kuroo who was mad at me for some odd reason which really pissed me off. I should be pissed off at him for being such an ass but i couldn't be mad at him if i didn't know what made him so angry, If i were to start dating Kenma would he stop talking to me all together? Would he throw away our years of friendship just like that? i didn't know he liked him, so he couldn't possibly get mad at me for something i had no control over and i don't even know if these feelings i have for Kenma are what i think they are, this could all just be in my head since i am always hanging around Kenma cause were so close. Kuroo has always been like an older brother to Kenma so that could also be one of the main reason why he got so pissed when i told him that i kissed Kenma, he was being protective of his little brother. I honestly don't know anymore and  i just want to sleep and wake up with a fresh mind tomorrow and hope to figure all this out. 

I sighed turning to my side and closed my eyes hoping to eventually fall asleep, just when i felt the sweet bliss of sleep taking over the window by my desk flew up letting in the chilly air of the night. Kuro stepped into my room through the window and was now standing there with his hands in his pockets. I got into a seating position with my back against the wall that my bed was pressing against with my arms crossed over my chest. Kuro walked over to me and punched me in the arm causing a loud 'ouch' to ask my mouth, he then plopped down on the floor his back facing me sitting crisscrossed on the floor. 

" That really hurt, Jerk." I shouted rubbing my right arm, the one Kuroo punched. 

" That's good." He commented crossing his arms over his chest. " I am glad it did cause you deserved it." He said harshly, but i could tell he didn't actually mean it. " I'm sorry about earlier and for punching you. " He said sounding very apologetic.

" Mind telling me why you were such an ass?." I asked him placing my feet on either side of his shoulder pushing him back and fourth. " I keep trying to think what could make you so mad at me but the only thing i could come up with is that you like Kenma." 

" Since you were so honest with me, i'll be honest with you." Kuro said looking up at the ceiling scratching the back of his head trying to find the proper words to say whatever he wanted to say to me. " I like Kenma." He said letting his head hung low slightly his ears turning a slight shade of pink.

" What?!?." I shouted sounding surprised. Even though the thought was everywhere in my head the fact that Kuroo himself was telling me took me by surprise. " Since when?." I asked him curiously. 

" Enough about that, Okay?." He said sounding very irritated. " It took swallowing my pride to come here and be your friend cause i could tell you really needed one right now. So stop talking about me and stop talking about your shit." He said crossing his arms over his shoulder resting his back against the bed. I nodded my head with a hum and told Kuroo everything that happened today and what i was thinking and feeling. I expected him to punch me again but he didn't he just sat there patiently listening to everything i had to say. 

" Your way of thinking is stupid." Kuro said bluntly." Your just making excuses." 

" Eh? But i am not." I told him sounding generally confused. Why would i have to make excuses? i don't have a problem with wanting to date Kenma, its just that we've always been friends and to suddenly start dating him and it ending badly there could be no going back to how things were. I am just being cautious nothing else, i like Kenma and i want the best for him but i am not the best and now knowing that Kuroo liked him too? that made things difficult. 

" You are." He shot back. " You like Kenma right? there's nothing else to discuss you both know each other well so why not just go for it instead of beating around the bush." 

" That's the thing i don't know if i actually do like, like him this could all just be my mind playing tricks on me since i am always around him." 

" Are you stupid?." He said raising his voice. " How could you not know? You kissed him and you liked it, every minute of it and your just gonna sit there and tell me you don't have feelings for him?." Kuroo got up from the floor and turned towards me with his fist balled up clenching his teeth looking very angry. " How can you be so stupid dude?. Why did i even bother? Look either you get your shit together or lose him forever. Either way i don't care. This is the jealousy talking so don't take everything to heart but just know that if you don't act i will take him away and i won't let him go even if you come begging." Kuroo walked over to the way he came in and stood there for a second before turning his head towards me. " What do you plan to do?." He asked me sounding very serious. 

" I don't know." I said truthfully. 

He scoffed at me and placed one foot out the window with his gaze still on me. " Your my friend, closest friend and you should know when i am serious so listen well." I look up at him staring into his eyes. " You better act or i will make him mine." Kuro left the way he came in shutting the window behind him before jumping down and walking away. 

I ran a frustrated hand through my hair as i slump into my bed. Why did this have to be so hard? Kuroo your so annoying but your right about one thing though, that i needed to really think about what i want and act now because Kenma wasn't going to wait around for me to get my act together he's gonna want answers just as much as i am gonna want one from him. I pulled the covers over my body and let out a loud and frustrated groan from underneath it. Tomorrow is another day and hopefully the answer to my worries will be there.