BITTER | KOMAHINA (Warning: BOY X BOY)

chapter 5: reminiscence of the mind

hi guise xx sorrey for the lack of updates!!! gomen gomen )))): aneywayzz im back and im ready for more yaoi! i hope u guys enjoy this chapter :3~~ SOME JUICY DRAMA IS GOING TO COME!!! MUAHAHHAHAHA BE PREPARED!!!!!!! XD the calm before the storm basically ;)

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hajime watched as nagito stormed off angrily, ouma trailing right after blowing a raspberry in his direction. he turned towards izuru and glared at him, the familiar feeling of exasperation inside his chest. "bro? why did you say something so stupid in front of my boyfriend?!!"

izuru casually checked the watch on his wrist before meeting hajime dead in the eye. "what? was what i said not the truth?" 

"you aren't supposed to say that in front of the guy im with........!" he snarled, clenching his fists in anger. "are you not aware of the consequences?! it was supposed to be a secret!! now im not sure what he would do. nagito's a very troublesome guy, you know?!!!!"

izuru huffed and stared to the side, now unwilling to meet hajime's eyes. "listen, if you didn't want me to say anything then you shouldn't have prodded." he paused as hajime stared hardly at him. "...i was just speaking the truth. you knew what you were getting to when you first advanced on me."

hajime groaned, covering his face tiredly. "listen, it was a mistake. we agreed to never bring that up again, right?! so why did you?!"

"it wasn't a one-time thing, hajime." he spat bitterly. "we didnt just get drunk and accidentally have a one night stand- its a multiple occurrence. i think you're missing the point here."

hajime couldn't believe what he was hearing. just.. what was coming out of his co-worker's mouth?! he bit his tongue to prevent himself from saying anything he'd regret. however, the frustration he was feeling took over and he eventually snapped. 

"LISTEN! you literally just announced that we were having something more than a professional relationship!!! not only are you damaging our positions, but you also told my fucking BOYFRIEND that im cheating!!!! what sort of person are you?!"

the aura around the other darkened and hajime swore that his usual crimson eyes were darker and more prominent than usual. a chill went up his spine as he took a deep breath and started speaking.

"your relationship with him was set for failure from the beginning. remember what you told me when we met? you never wanted to be with him from the start. those were the exact words from your mouth. i cant believe that you're trying to play the victim card now, hajime. i never thought that you would be that sort of person."

"i--"

izuru cuts him off by continuing to speak.

"you told me that he was a nuisance and that his mere company was irritating to you. you said that you wanted to leave you the first chance you had- it's been 7 months, for god's sake. and guess what? your behavior towards him hasn't shifted one bit. if i hadn't spoken up, your relationship with him would eventually falter anyway. it's better to end it early than to let it die a slow and painful death."

after izuru finished, they both stood in silence for a while. neither of them said anything. hajime thought about the words he'd said to him-- was it really his fault? certainly, he had treated nagito without the respect he deserved.. but-

it couldn't be his fault.. he refused to accept that.

nagito was the one who was at fault. he wanted to be with him despite hajime's past countless attempts of telling him that he wasn't interested. when he finally accepted, he'd warned him... 

-FLASHBACK-

"listen, nagito." hajime started, rubbing the nape of his neck irritably. "i dont think that me being involved with someone like you is a good idea... don't get me wrong, you're a good person and all. but i don't think im mentally capable to be in a relationship right now."

nagito smiled innocently, brushing his hand against his.

"aww, hajime-kun! it's ok, we can take it slowly. i really like you and i want to be with you..." he looked at him with such an expecting look that hajime couldn't help but feel bad.

"im not a good person, nagito........... i don't think i can be the lover you want me to be."

nagito hugged him reassuringly, and hajime sunk into his warm touch. "its ok hajime........ we can take it slow. ok? i dont care if you hurt me.................. as long as im with you, then im happy."

 hajime eventually gave in and nodded slightly. "...alright."

-FLASHBACK END-

"hajime...." izuru started, shifting in his position. hajime looked at him despondently. izuru hesitated, before slowly slipping his hand around his, leading him to the end of the hallway where his office was. hajime nervously followed behind, too lost in what had just happened to really say anything. 

"forget about him." the ebony-haired man finally said. 

"huh??" hajime stuttered.

"forget about him." his voice was more stronger and hajime looked at him in surprise. 

"i cant do that, izuru.. you know that."

izuru shook his head angrily and squeezed his hand. "im right here, hajime. im better than him in every aspect, so......" he trailed off at the end, his cheeks tinting a light shade of pink. hajime widened his eyes at the realization of what he was implying.

"h-huh...? but izuru..... i can't do that to him............"

"you already did." he responded simply. hajime flinched at that, before shakily nodding, shyly eyeing the other in the face.

"erm.. alright, then." he finally said, giving izuru's hand a tiny squeeze in return. izuru took the opportunity and swiftly planted a soft, hovering kiss on his lips.

instead of the usual fluttery feeling he got from kissing nagito, hajime's stomach dropped and was met face to face with a sickening feeling.

it...... almost felt wrong.

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