Can't We Just Stop?

You are a Gift

Toni's P.O.V
I opened my eyes and bright lights blinded me. I couldn't really see but it smelled like a fucking doctor's office. When my vision was clear I realized that I am in the hospital. I guess my suicide plan didn't work. I sighed and tried getting up when a nurse said to me "No,lay back down you need to rest, because that was a lot of drugs you took". I sighed and laid back down. "I'm here to check how you are progressing". I just nodded and let her do whatever. When she was done she told me "Well your vitals and everything look fine, so I will tell the doctor to come since you are awake".

I thanked her even though I didn't want to, and groaned in frustration. All I wanted was to die how hard is that? The doctor came in and asked me questions then he told me if I had anyone to pick me up. I said "It's alright I can leave by myself". He nodded and said "Alright but you have to sign yourself out". I nodded, signed all the shit, and got my stuff that I have no idea got here. I left the hospital and went to my bench that I now call home. I took a book from my bag, laid down, and started reading when someone called me. "Toni?" I looked up and say Cheryl in front of me. "Yes?" I asked her. "What are you doing here?" She asked me.

"I mean this is kinda my home" I said with a little bit of sadness. She looked at me with sad eyes and then with angry eyes. "Well you deserve to be homeless after all". I started crying and decided that if Cheryl won't even be nice to me I should end my life right now. I looked at Cheryl and said "I hope you find someone who loves you and doesn't cheat on you". I took my stuff and headed walking towards a cliff. I dropped my bag on the floor and stood at the edge of the cliff. "Mom, I miss you and I want to be up there with you now. I know you are probably gonna tell me that this was the wrong decision when I get up there, but no one else loves me here anymore. And Dad you are probably down there in hell saying that everything that has happened after I broke up with Cheryl is what I deserve. You are probably congratulating those who told me I'm a whore slut, and a useless bitch. I am now agreeing with them. I'm now giving them what they want which is to get off the face of the earth. Well I guess this is goodbye to the world". I leaned forward and expected to fall, but I felt someone grab me and pulled me close to them and away from the cliff. I started trying to get away from the person and yelled "Get off of me" "Let me die". I was now crying and all I saw was red hair."Cheryl?" I said in a shocked tone. "Toni please don't do this" she said while crying. "I don't belong here" I shouted. She shook her head and said "You are a gift to the world, and it would be so heartbreaking if you left this world". "Don't you want me to die" I asked quietly. "No, what you did hurt me and I wanted to hurt you too, but I think we could figure out what happens next without you dying" she whispered out still holding onto me.