Can't We Just Stop?

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Toni's P.O.V
It's been 2 weeks since my second suicide attempt and I guess I've been doing better. Cheryl had set me up with my own therapist and it's been helping me a little. Cheryl also decided that we should do couples therapy even though we're not together at this moment. I have been excused from school for 3 weeks which means I have one more week until I have to go back.

Right now I'm lying in Cheryl's bed waiting for her to come back from school. Over the past 2 weeks I found myself wanting to always be around or next to Cheryl. Whenever she goes to school I always try to beg her to stay here at thistlehouse with me,but she always says that she has to go to maintain her perfect attendance. I looked at the time and realized that it was about 10 more minutes until Cheryl got home.

I decided to go downstairs and make a snack since I was feeling a little bit hungry.When I got downstairs I made a turkey,ham, and cheese sandwich with some fruit punch. I sat down at the table and ate my food while scrolling through my phone. After finish eating, I washed up my plates and sat down on the couch in the living room and turned on the tv. A few minutes later I heard keys jingling at the door. I immediately ran to the door and opened it, and jumped on Cheryl .

She held me by my legs and asked me "Hey what's wrong". I shook my head into her neck and just embraced her. We stood there for a few minutes and then she carried me inside and shut the door. "Toni I would love to carry and hold you and everything, but can I put my stuff down first" she asked me. I decided for a while and then jumped off of her. She huffed and put her school stuff on the floor to the side and opened her arms to me. I hugged her tightly never wanting to let go.

"You wanna go and watch a movie in my room" Cheryl asked me. I nodded my head yes and she tapped my leg which meant to jump. I jumped onto her and she held me while carrying me up the stairs into her room.She laid me on the bed and turned the tv and laid down with me. She brought me closer to her and I cuddled into her neck. "I'm sorry if me being this clingy annoys you" I told her. She chuckled slightly while shaking her head. "No T.T this isn't annoying, if I'm being honest I find it cute".

I blushed and hid my face in her neck. I had this question running in my mind for a while and I think now is the time to ask Cheryl . "Cheryl" I said while looking up at her. "Hm" she replied still looking at the tv. "Are we ever gonna get back together " I asked her seriously. She looked down at me and said "Yes we are, I will accept that what has happened those few weeks ago were my fault because I took everything the wrong way. I was so focus on the idea of you hurting me, that I didn't even realize you were hurting also. I take the blame for all of that cause everything went out of proportion because of me.The reason I want us to go to couples therapy is so we could make sure our relationship is really strong and if something like that happens again, the outcome will be different than last time".

"Hey hey hey, this is my fault. If I hadn't gone to the party and get drunk out of my mind somehow then none of this would've happened. I honestly didn't remember anything until you came into my room that morning. I feel disgusted that I even let that happen and Veronica's your best friend. The suicide attempts were just me feeling extremely low and empty with everything going on. At that time it was just something to make me feel free possibly" I told her.

I then looked into her eyes and saw the tears that were about to fall. I stared and then the tears started falling. She tried turning her face, but I brought her face towards mine and wiped the tears. "Why are you crying". "I-I just feel that I'm the reason why you're suicidal. I mean you tried to k-kill yourself twice because I broke up with you and ignored you completely" she said in between hiccups. "Listen to me,I'm not suicidal because of you, I guess you could say you just added into everything I was dealing with, and that's what really made me break. Don't think about that ok?". She nodded her head and I brought her into a hug.

The thing I love about Cheryl and I is that we could have conversations like this that make us find comfort in each other at times. I held her rocking her slightly until her crying  calmed down. She released herself from my hold and looked at me with her eyes all red. "I really love you Toni Topaz". I smiled at her and said "I really love you more than anything Cheryl Blossom". She smiled at me slightly and then laid both of us down and climbed on top of me.She laid her head down on my chest and turned towards the tv. I wrapped my arms around her waist and turned towards the tv also, watching Rick and Marty.We may not be together at this point in time but this is progress.

A/N:I know this ain't long but hope y'all enjoyed this chapter ❤️

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