As If ~PJM~

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A/N: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SELF HARM! READ ONLY IF YOURE COMFORTABLE WITH IT! This is a filler chapter, so you can skip it.

I woke up in the middle of the night in Jimin's arms. And after tossing and turning for about 30 minutes, I finally decided to say, "Jimin... I can't sleep..."

He woke up and yawned. "Do you need a goodnight kiss~?"

"First of all: ew, no. Second of all: you're gonna get sick if you kiss me. Third of all: I hate you. Why even ask?"

"Damn, sorry..."

I sighed. "Nevermind... I don't need your help... I'm gonna get some pain meds to help me sleep.."

"Alright... I'm not sure that's healthy, but okay..."

I walked out of the room and downstairs and went into a cabinet by the stove and grabbed a bottle of pain meds.

"I said I would only take a few... O-only a... F-few..." I poured a few into my hand and took them, but I ended up taking more after that.

And more.

And more.

Until I decided to stop, when I started sweating.

I know what you're thinking. I have no reason to be depressed. I know that. But you know, depression doesn't give a fuck about what you think.

It all happened so suddenly. I have never felt this way before, but the pain just kept coming and coming and coming... And not physical pain... Emotional pain... And I had no idea why... So.. I took an envelope opener and held out my left wrist and cut.

And another one.

And another.

And another.

Aaaaannnddd another.

I stopped and stared at the blood dripping down my arm, and I smiled genuinely.

I grabbed some gauze from the cabinet and wrapped it around my wrist and went back into my room.

"You were gone for a while. What's up with that??"

"I'll be right back." I grabbed a long sleeved shirt and went to the bathroom and changed. I walked back into the room and got back under the covers.

"You didn't answer my question..."

"Oh will you just shut up and go to sleep?!"

"O-okay.. S-sorry.." He sighed as we both fell asleep.

In the morning, I woke up, and Jimin was gone.

I got out of bed and went to look for him.

"He left earlier last night, sis." Taehyung said.

"What? Why? And how did the interview go?"

"He said that he felt like he was invading your personal space and he didn't realize it before. And they practically kicked me out because I wasn't good enough for them..." He sighed. "Anyways, how are you feeling? Jimin told me that you weren't doing so hot yesterday."

-Taehyung's POV-

I ignored the blade on the counter, and decided to put it off for later when she was feeling better so I don't put her in an even worse place.

"I feel dizzy and nauseous..."

"Get back to bed and sleep a little more. You look like shit, for one thing, and two, it'll help a lot. Now, shoo."

"Ugh. Fine." She walked up the stairs, mumbling.

"Aish... What am I going to do with that child..?" I sighed and decided to call Jimin to tell him about it.

"..."

"..."

"..." He picked up, "Hello?"

"Jimin, this is very important and it has to do with your girlfriend."

"What?! What happened to her?! Is she alright?!!"

"Calm down... She just.. Did something bad..."

"D-did she ch-cheat...?"

"Oh, God no. She's too scared of you to do that. She.. Umm.."

"Well, she harmed herself."

"ARE YOU SERIOUS?! THAT'S EVEN WORSE!! I'M COMING OVER RIGHT NO-"

"No, she's asleep. You probably shouldn't."

"Ugh! Text me when she wakes up.. I have to go... Bye."

"Peace." He hung up.

-Jimin's POV-

"How could I have been so stupid?!? I should have asked her why she was in a rush to change... I should have checked on her... How many pills did she take?? Shit..." I ran my fingers through my hair as I paced around the room.

"Jimin! It's time to go!" My mom yelled from outside.

"I'm coming, mom! Just a second!" I grabbed my shoes and put my phone into my pocket before walking out the door.

Then I woke up.

I woke up with my arms around Y/n in the middle of the night, still in a t-shirt.

Then the tears started coming and she woke up.

"Jiminie pabo... Why are you crying...?"

"I just had a n-nightmare..."

"Ha. Sucks to be you, I guess."

Yup. Same old Y/n.

Then we both fell back asleep.