why me? /Marcus Dobre

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D: you really can't see it can you?
M: see what Dayna?
D: you can't see that she is clearly trying to get in your pants and you are just allowing it to happen
M: what do you mean she is a great person Dayna! You just can't see the good in a person.
D: I can't see the good in a person?! I try marcus I try. But every time I come to my senses and think I'm overreacting I just see her touching you and then I loose trust.
M: see obviously you are overreacting.
I sigh. This is the fourth time marcus and I have had this argument over jade in two weeks!
D:marcus I don't know what to do anymore.
M: neither do I. Okay? You're jealous!
D:stop jumping to conclusions please? I'm not. You're just clearly not seeing it from my perspective
M: no no no hip into my shoes and see where it takes you! She's great.
D: that's what you siad about the last two people you cheated on me with..
I mumbled it so he wouldn't hear. But clearly he we actually paying attention for once on his life.
M: okay. ENOUGH! I DIDNT CHEAT REMEMBER?!
D: fu*k this I can't take it anymore Okay? I need to get away from all of this
M: see this is what you do with all your problems. You run away! It doesn't help!
D: so that's what you think of me. I'm just a girl that runs away from all her problems?
M: maybe
He mumbled that in hopes that I didn't hear but clearly I did...
I shed a single tear...
M: shit I didn't mean it like that..
D:no you said it right? You th think that I'm a girl that just runs away from every single problem she has right? Right? You know what I think I need a break from all of this its so hectic for me and you just don't seem to be sympathetic and I feel like you would never put yourself in my shoes and see what I'm seeing from my point of view from my eyes you just thinking about her all the time with the f****** boobs sticking out of her shirt and her and shorts that barely fit her ass. Every guy's dream right? I see the way you-
M: no no no slow down please no no let me talk
D: though you're always say your side of the story so let me see my side of the story don't cut me off. So I see the way you look it at when she's talking you lose interest and stare into nothing I feel like you are dreaming about fantasies with her I am done with this I need a break from everything from you from school I just I don't know anymore ok do you understand I hope you do well I'm done talking now if you want to go but you've got one minute marcus 1 minute.
M: firstly I don't have fantasies with her I you always assume things ok and I can't do anything again. Just want to see always jumping to conclusions and thinking that I'm cheating and when the other one is the most type is the universal Ki I don't know we were people watching people looking at you when you told people I'm chilled with it but when I talk to people who breaks loose I can't even anymore she's just a friend how many times do you want me to tell you this what do you want from me huh?
D: I want break Marcus I can't go on like this d much longer can we just take break please. I just need some time to think some time alone to not be shattered everyday I walk to a class I hope you understand goodbye Marcus.
M: ok well tell me when you're ready and I'll be waiting with open arms. Bye I love you.
D: ok thank you bye. I love you too just remember that.
Marcus walked out the door and heard a click I meant that the doors are locked and Marcus is left. I say and go and sit in my bedroom letting tears out. I cry I think about our moments happy moments of sad moment every moment in our relationship. I wish we didn't have to keep fighting and arguing like this over the stupid girl who's a f****** s***. I can't believe I let this f****** a****** just destroy the best f****** relationship in the whole entire motherfuking world I've been working so far cuz she's she's just as stupid as Bich tran together with my a great relationship by f****** appointment. Did the bears ever teach you any f****** manners . I'm so mad right now. House could some  stupid f****** b**** just gonna take everything away from me just like that snap of the fingers she's got it every boy wrapped around her finger like a rope. What am I gonna do with this girl. I lay down and think about this relationship before you know go into more detail I'll be going to bed this big hole in our relationship question mark is our relationship really that toxic? I gonna get a lot of height from this again? Will Marcus still love me? I mean Asian other ones at this like you said he love me but what I was just words? Should I get in touch with people at last in the past? Should I break it off here? Styles defence first? I know why it is getting so damn slow for all of these questions questions that may or may never be answered well I Just Gotta Learn in reality nothing is perfect I mean yeah we'll go through a box of the red pepper we'll find our way to each other eventually right question mark it can't be all that bad right? I've gotta get some sleep soon. I hear my door open so I can see the crack of light code. I see someone who has a shadow cast over me.
D: who is it?
I: it's Ivanita
D: oh okay come inside
She came inside and start stroking my arm gently.
I: want to speak about it sweetie?
D: yeah actually I do it'll make me feel a bit better I guess you think so
I: let it all out
D : so me and Marcus got into another argument about Jade again stop she was being so I don't know what but he was following her around and talking to her constantly and I was I don't know why I was getting the attention they deserved from my boyfriend. So when we came home I confronted him about it again for the 4th time in 2 weeks and he just said I was overreacting and I'm getting jealous and well technically blamed me for everything when you start seeing it the way I see it he's just taking her side for everything that she does and he's supposed to be on my side I mean his girlfriend after all. All is doing is following this light around like until dawn I don't know he's like a dog follow his f****** owner. I'm tired of it so I told Ricardo we argued over the blah blah blah basically I asked to take a break from everything in it and he said sure and you say you love me and hit me with open arms but I don't have those are just words he was supposed to say or I should actually believe I feel like our relationship is just I don't know I have no words.
I: hey hey it's ok or relationship so what's up sometimes do you think looks at a perfect? Painting just as bad as you guys we fight we make up with each other we love each other the Power of Love is something to be underestimated you go girl . Show him that you were trying to save your relationship show him that you are caring for show him that you are trying to love him to. You got off a flirt with you if you have to also win some battles. This can be best achieved by just you know Being Yourself taking interested in watching him but stalkerish of course just be you and don't try to be someone else stop that's the best advice I can give you girl you take or leave it it's up to you.
I thought in understanding and she gets leaves clothes later or. I sit on my bed close my eyes and just think think for a few minutes on my life of what I want to do but everyday I want to concentrate from this minute on just being myself but I am on the inside and the outside. I'm gonna start you know her calling Lucas tell him what's up what's happening and you know. After I call Lucas I decided to just let it loose and let all my anger sadness Jelousy whatever was bottled up inside me I started crying and then the next minute I know I threw a pillow at the wall and then all of a sudden my eyes were like slits just thinking of Jade I turned out to be a curled ball on my bed a mess of a curled ball that cannot be cleaned . Bike ride for knows how long that eventually I just fell asleep.

SO GUYS A HELLA SHORT CHAPTER.  IM SORRY I HAVENT BEEN POSTING AS MUCH, ITS JUST THAT I HAVE ALOT OF SPORTS WHICH GO TILL 5 IN THE AFTERNOON AND THEN AFTER THAT I HAVE HOMEWORK AND THEN I HAVE TO TO MY EVEBING ROUTINE AND STUDY. SO I HAVE A LOT TO DO RN SO IM PRETTY BUSY BUT ILL TRY SLOT IN ATLEAST 20 MI S OF WRITING ATLEAST PART OF A CHAPTER ON HERE. ALSO IM WORKIMG ON SOMETHING FOR MY INSTAGRAM ACCOUNT. SO YEAAAA PLEASEREMEMBER TO VOTE AND COMMENT AND ALSO FOLLOW ME AND ILL FOLLOW YOU BACK. ALSO WHEN THIS BOOK IS OVER WHICH IS IDK WHEN BUT WHEN IT IS IMM MAKE ANOTHER BOOK BUTTTTT IM NOT GONNA TELL YOU THAT AS YET. BUT YEA  SO ENJOY YOUR DAY OR NIGHT BEAUTIFULS!