kiss me (finished)

005

"JUNG HOSEOK"

Yoongi shot up in bed, something he doesn't do often, in a cold sweat with a single thought in mind.

"JUNG HOSEOK"

He clamered out of bed, his breath uneven as the reality set in. He rushed to his mirror of his bathroom, and ripped off the bandaid that covered his dreaded mark. J  H.... J  H  Jung Hoseok.... "FUCKING DUMB ASS" He said out loud, hoping he didn't wake his neighbors.

How could he be so stupid, had he really tried so hard to forget about his mark, that he genuinely did for the time being? Or was he too distracted by the handsome boy he's been spending time with to even think about his marking and the boy's name's similarity.

What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck do I do???

He was full on panicking now. He's come to terms with the fact he'd never have a soulmate. That's what he wanted right? He's always been too afraid of love for himself. His parents got a divorce when he was young, even though they we're soulmates, splitting up his brother and him. He never wanted that to happen to him, or have to go through that heart break that he witnessed his mother go through. The thought of the fact that not all soulmates stay together haunted him, to the point of him wanting to forget the thought of ever being in romantic love.

He ran back into his room, grabbing his phone quickly from his bedside table. He quickly went to his contacts, and clicked on to his hyung's. The mint haired boy tried to text, but his hands were shaking too much to make coherent sentences. Even though he would have preferred not to, he clicked the call button, knowing how late Seokjin tends to stay up, due to his job.

"Hey Yoongi, you're up late, you okay?" His friend asked in a concerned voice.

"N-no not really.. " He responded, his voice shaking more then he was.

"Okay bub, you wanna talk about it? What's wrong?"

"So... Ive never shown y-you my mark right?" Jin made a noise of confirmation on the end of the line. "Well..... I-its, j h... As in-"

He was cut off by his hyung, who came to the same conclusion, just much, much quicker then younger. "As in Jung Hoseok." Yoongi replied quietly, "y-yeah....I'm kind of freaking out and I d-don't know what to do hyung my chest hu-urts and it's hard to breath, help me please I don't know-" He was cut off by the older again. "Hey hey hey bub, it's okay, I got you, just breath, can you do that for me baby?.... Can you do that for me bub?" He repeated himself to make sure he got a response out of Yoongi, "yeah, yeah hyung, thank you " He said breathing slowly. After a few more minutes of him steadying his breathing, and encouraging words from the taller, he was breathing normally for the most part.

"So, do you like him? Because, not all soulmates actually like each other, and that's okay too. To be honest, I can tell he likes you." Seokjin said, relieved he was able to calm down Yoongi, it wasn't the first time, but any time his younger friend has a panic attack, it scares him.

"No!" Yoongi responded way too quickly, "... I mean, " Be sighed, falling back onto his bed, feeling more relaxed after talking with Jin. "I don't know... I don't want to... You know what happened." He said, running a hand through his hair.

"Yeah I know, but that doesn't always happen you know, way way more often then not, soulmates fall in love, and stay together forever! Do you think me and Namjoon are going to break up?" The grey haired boy asked.

"Of course not, I think Namjoon would die," Yoongi said chuckling. "Hey! So would I! See? From your point of view. Logically? Yes, it could happen that y'all don't stay together, but m o r e logically, then you will stay together," Yoongi sighed, "I don't think that was correct korean hyung," He said laughing when he was called a brat

"But what if he's not even my soulmate? I've never seen his mark so it could be like, I don't know, C  S or something. Or what if he doesn't want a soulmate and I'm considering going against everything I've ever thought since my parents divorced and he doesn't even want to have a soulmate. What if he stops talking to me because he actually doesn't like me at all and wants to let me down easy? Or what if-" He was cut off for the millionth time this conversation.

"Hey!! Like I said, he's very obvious that he likes you dumb ass. Like, how he definitely checked you out at the ice skating rink," Yoongi instantly went red, he stood up and started to walk around his apartment to give him something to do"or how heavily he pouted when you decided to walk to school instead. Or how he offered to hold your hand the whole time, or how he always wants to sit next to you, or whined when you didn't use the nickname you gave him, or-"

"enough hyung, enough, I get it. I mean.... I guess I could give it a chance? I feel like I should get to know him more?" Jin made a noise of agreement, he skimmed over his bookshelf looking at nothing in particular, "and then I feel like I should talk about my family? And kinda, explain all that shit?"

"YAY!! Sounds good to me!! So when are you gonna tell him you guys are soulmates?" The older asked with curiosity laced in his tone.

".... I forgot about that step" A loud laugh was heard from the other line, " Hey! Don't laugh.... Orrrrr, I could just wait for him to ask me instead? That sounds like a better idea, yea."

"Yoongi no-"

"Yoongi yes!"

"God damn it I'm too tired for this, at least we got this far. Goodnight Yoongi, it's gonna be okay, alright? Love you"

"Okay hyung, goodnight, love you too" Yoongi said, hanging up the phone and shutting it off.

He went back into his room, and threw his phone and himself onto his bed. After talking to his hyung, his mind was still running too quickly for him to catch up.

He was scared. Completely scared shitless. He's never dated anyone, or even had really a crush on anyone. Though, Yoongi was also excited? He really did like Hoseok, guessing the reason he was so effected by the happy boy was because they were soulmates, hopefully.

He crawled back to a regular position for sleeping, and fixed the blanket around him. The mint haired boy layed on his side, getting tired quickly. He stared off into space, thinking of nothing and everything, till his eyelids drooped, and he fell asleep.

So before I was doing one chapter was a whole day? I might change that, and just kinda do whatever I feel? And these days aren't all in order, there are some "off camera" So to speak things that happened? If that makes sense? Anyway... Yea