kiss me (finished)

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Yoongi stretched, closing his eyes tightly, trying to rid the headache that had made itself home behind his eyes. he'd stared at his monitor the entire night editing the song that he supposedly was going to give to hoseok... hopefully.

he'd missed a day of school, but the green haired boy didn't really care, the classes were fairly easy for him and the teachers liked him, and anyway, this was important.

he sipped his cold coffee from the night before and sighed. with the small amount of time he had, he knew the song wouldn't be exactly what he wanted. he basically begged on his hands and knees for Jin to do the singing parts, and Namjoon helped with the editing and coming up with the beat.

the lyrics though, those were all from Yoongi. it was easy to write, if only his pen would catch up with his mind.

Yoongi was satisfied with Jin's parts, flawless as always, but he just couldn't get use to his parts, having to redo them so much he had to record it at his house from taking so long. eventually the rapper tolerated it.

after working all that day and night to get it right, he decided that the next day was the day. he needed to get to school anyway, and he needed clarity, or maybe a conclusion? he needed hoseok. was this withdrawal? because he was going through it.

so he went to bed at around 4 am, having to be up at 10 for his 12:45 class, but he assumed talking with hoseok might take a while.

well, he tried to go to bed at 3, but his brain wouldn't shut up, neither would his heart. it wouldn't stop beating at unreasonable rates. eventually, the tiredness of at least 48 hours without sleep, he finally rested.

(time skip)

Yoongi woke up before his alarm surprisingly, well maybe not so surprisingly, he was nervous as hell. he got up and took a shower, boy did he need one, and picked an outfit of a black button up and put a dark Fear of God shirt over it, a pair of jeans with a basic belt. and paired that with white converse. he covered his mark, not wanting to cover it again at this point. it was so pretty... but he did it anyway, he didn't want people to ask questions...

by this time it was 11, so yoongi grabbed his essentials and the flash drive that contained the song. as he grabbed it his heart leaped, so we're really gonna do this,, huh.. he thought

before he could change his mind he grabbed his back, stuffed the flash drive into his pocket and left his apartment. frankly he almost fell down the stairs,, but that's besides the point.

on his way there, the short boy had basically destroyed his lip by biting at it so hard and continuously checked his front pocket for the drive. let's just say he was a little bit anxious.

when the school was in sight, he had to force himself to not turn away. yoongi sent a quick text to Namjoon, a kind of way to hold himself accountable.

Yoongi
hey Namjoon....so, I'm gonna do it, I'm at school rn,, I'm scared as fuck ngl

Namjooning
whoa really? I'm proud of you hyung!
I think it will go well! good luck <3

Yoongi
thank you Namjoon
<3

he groaned putting his phone away and started to search through the sea of people outside of the building. he started to second guess himself if he had messed up the days hoseok normally has school, or maybe in that short amount of time he moved, or maybe he was avoiding him, or maybe he hates him now oh god this was such a bad idea this is a bad- 

the student heard a familiar laugh echo across the lawn. well, echoed to him, when he refocused everyone was way to loud for him to hear anything but the muffled sounds of voices and footsteps. he looked harder and eventually his eyes landed on his fluffy brown hair. his red jacket and ripped blue jeans and Dr Martians. and then his eyes, and then his nose, and then his lips as they spoke his name. and then his smile, the beautiful heart shaped smile. but, something looked, wrong with it. like, something was off...

Yoongi immediately averted his view as hoseok ran up to him.

"uh, hey-" Yoongi tried to start but was interrupted.

"hey Yoongi! I was worried about you when you didn't come to classes yesterday, are you okay?" he asked, seeming genuinely concerned.

"oh yeah I'm fine, sorry for worrying you.. uh, c-can I talk to you? uh, privately?" he stuttered out.

hoseok smiled again, but it didn't quite reach his eyes, and his cheeks didn't round out like they normally do. "I was gonna ask you the same thing! hey let's go to the dance studio, I normally have one reserved at this time!" hoseok turned around and started walking the other direction. normally he would grab him by the wrist or the sleeve of his shirt, he didn't this time.

he navigated through the crowded people, normally when Yoongi was alone he'd go around, sticking close to the walls. or if he was with hoseok, he would just get dragged through as people moved out of the was as hoseok walled through. not like a prince type thing, but people just could actually see him, unlike Yoongi who got lost approximately 7 times.

eventually they made it through, and hoseok held the door open for yoongi as they walked through...sweet. Yoongi pulled out the light blue flash drive out of his pocket and held it in his fist.

the taller boy seemed to have been spacing out. his hands inside his hoodie pocket staring at his shoes in the reflection. he subconsciously started biting at his lip.

"um, you can go first seok." the nickname seemed to get hoseoks attention back.

"oh," he said quietly, "oh!" he said as if he forgot what emotion he was feeling. "yeah i was just gonna say about the whole soulmate thing." yoongi's hand went to the back of his neck instinctively, hoseok watched this, pausing.

"I, think we should just stay friends?" yoongi's heart dropped.

"I mean, obviously it wasn't something you wanted to do anyway and I uh,, don't think that's something I want to do, either..." hoseok looked down, his speech pattern and speed getting almost fragmented. "and I'm chill with being friends and I hear that's how a lot of soulmates are anyway. we can just go on with our lives, maybe get a tattoo over the marks, forget that the whole thing at the park even happened."

neither of them looked at the other. but they both had tears in their eyes. the two boys wanted the same thing, but didn't know it.

"yeah, I think that's a good idea." yoongi said blinking the tears out of his eyes and putting on a straight face. you would have never thought he had been crying. he put the drive back into his pocket.

"that's what I was gonna say too, glad we're on the same page." his voice was flat. he didn't allow any emotion to peak through his words.

he walked towards the door and opened it, he took a deep breath, refusing to look back at his,, soulmate? we're they soulmates anymore anyway?

"see you around Jung." he walked out and closed the door.

maybe missing one more day of school wouldn't hurt.