Why me?

Rose

Today it's just two weeks away before I'm leaving LA to go study in the Netherlands. I'm nervous but excited. My mom Karen yells for the second time this morning 'ROSE BREAKFAST IS READY'. I want to jump back into bed because I'm so tired but instead of jumping in bed, I put on jeans and a shirt I bought yesterday and walk downstairs. My mom sigh 'Rose I shouted two times what's wrong with you?'. I don't want to say anything because I'm not in the mood for a fight today. My mom is tense in the last couple of months I understand she lost her job and now I'm going away.

'im sorry mom I'm just tired thank you for the breakfast'.  She looks at me and says ' i understand its hard that you just got dumped and have to leave in two weeks'. I'm rolling my eyes mom why do you have to bring that up. 'Thanks for the reminder mom what are we going to do today?'. Maybe she will stop talking about the fact that I got dumped by my stupid ex-boyfriend James.  'well, we can go shopping and eat something at Charlie's?'. I don't want to go shopping because I want to get ready for my new adventure but I want to spend Some time with my mom before I leave. 'let me finish my breakfast and were good to go :)' Fine, she says and leaves the kitchen to grab her purse. After I finished my breakfast I put my plate in the dishwasher and put my boots on. 'mom I'm ready !'. I hear the footsteps coming closer so I know she's coming. 'alright pumpkin I'm ready to go' She calls me pumpkin since I was a baby just because I was a chubby baby.  We're finally at a little boutique that opened a week ago my mom wanted to take a look at the place before I would leave. We step out of the car and walk to the little boutique.  They have a lot of cute dresses and I pick a couple of dresses to try them on. The girl that works there is very nice and helps with picking cute dresses and helps me with bringing the dresses to the fitting room. I try on different dresses but they were not my thing. I try on a little black dress it is tight but it looks sexy but decent. Normally I don't buy this kind of dress but since I got dumped I want to look good especially when I'm going to Rotterdam for school. I walk out of the fitting room to show the dress to my mom. 'Omg Rose Your so beautiful you have to get this dress'. Well, I Will. 'i Will mom I like it' The girl I think her name was Tessa came to check on us when she sees me standing in the room with my black dress.

'i have a pair of black stiletto's that would be amazing under that dress!' She walks away and comes back with a pair of black stiletto's they are beautiful! The only thing is I don't walk on heels I'm comfortable with boots or just sneakers. I try them on and it is just perfect. Tessa says: 'you can walk to the mirror in de store next to the door in the beginning' O shit, I thought I didn't have to walk in these stilettoes.

'sure thank you ' 

I'm not going to fall just do it. I'm walking towards the mirror and I have the feeling that I look like a little lamb walking on ice. I look in the mirror and think ' wow'. At that moment I hear the Bell ring that's hanging above the door and I turn around. It is James. Why in the world do I have to see him in a women's boutique? 

The girl Tessa is running towards him and jumps in his arms kissing him all over his face. Just looking at that makes me feel sick it been a month since we broke up and now this. He didn't see me so I try to walk back to my mother when I hear ' Rose is that you?' I don't want to talk to him he was the first love I was 18 when I met him now I'm 22 and single again. My first Kiss was with him all of my first were with him. But if I don't say anything I Will regret it even when I said I never wanted to speak to him again. I won't see him for a long time since I'm the one who is moving. And before I know it He is standing in front of me with his big blue eyes and his mouth open. I want to walk around him but he stops me. ' Rose how are you doing I haven't seen you in a month' My eyes are burning it is so hard to see him again but I can't walk away every time I see someone I don't want to see. ' I'm alright' It is a big lie and he can see it. Tessa his new girl walks toward us and asks him how we know each other. ' oh we know each other from a party ' I look at him and I feel that my head is turning red like a tomato. I don't want to say anything but before I realize it I say: ' Yeah just friends for four years and then dumped me for a new toy'. I tried to walk as fast as possible and I see my mom. I walk into the fitting room and step out of the dress and into my clothes and I start crying. Why do I care so much about someone who doesn't care about me?  

I take my shirt and wipe away the tears on my cheeks. I step outside the fitting room and see my mom standing there with bags full of dresses.' thank you, mom, for buying the dresses I Will buy us Some food' The last thing I think about is food but I don't want to ruin the day for my mom. ' pumpkin I saw what happened we Will talk about it when you are ready to talk about it it is going to be alright I love you'. I don't know what to say so I just gave her a big hug and say ' thank you, mom, I love you too'. We walk through the boutique and we don't see James or that girl Tessa. Maybe I shouldn't want to see him. He broke up with me a month ago and now he has a new girl. We walk towards Charlie's it's on the same street and I really could use some fresh air. I see a table outside in the sun and we take a Seat. My mom talks about the fact that my grandpa is to Old to drive but still got himself a new car and that she has had a job interview but heard nothing from the company yet. I couldn't eat a thing I was still thinking about what happened. How could you be so mean saying that we met each other at a party? When everyone knows we were in a relationship for four years.