Why me?

Chapter 2

After we got lunch my mom wanted to go home because she was tired. I was tired to it was just too much for one day. After we got home we both got to our bedroom we were both tired I just needed a nap. After five minutes I fell asleep. My whole relationship was one drama. when I first met James I was at a party with my friend Jessica. She wanted me to meet someone she knew her whole life, of course, it was James. He has beautiful eyes blue like the sky, his hair was brownish and he had an athletic build. I know what he said when I first met him it was 'hi I'm James it's nice to meet you' looking at me like he already undressed me with his eyes. when I saw him I didn't know what to say because he was way out of my league, so I just said 'nice to meet you to'. Just staring at the floor. Jessica said 'i will get us some drinks Rose just hangs out with James I will be right back'. Of course, I gave her the big eye look but she looked away. James asked me to go and sit in the living room so we could talk. We talked about what our dreams and goals were our goals were similar he wanted to study in another country me too. He wanted to travel the world too. After a while Jessica came back with a drink I think it was a chardonnay it was good. after the party we exchanged numbers and I went home. After two days I got a message from James it said ' would you like to go on a date with me?'. Of course, I wanted that he was the man of every girl's dreams. The date went well and after that date, we went on a few more dates. Every date was romantic going to dinner with flowers, going to an outdoor movie, having dinner on a boat with candles and flowers. He treated me how every girl wants to be treated. After the dates, he asked for another date, of course, I said yes!

On that date we went to his house it was a beautiful apartment. He was older than me I was eighteen he was twenty-two. But I knew that he had a good job or something because it was a beautiful apartment that I couldn't afford. It was very industrial and you could see the city lights when your standing in front of the big glass wall/window. He made dinner and we sat down and ate pasta with pesto is was delicious. After we had a couple of chardonnays he asked me if I wanted to wait he had to grab something. After five minutes he walked into the room with I little black box. I was nervous why does he have a box it looks like one of the little boxes you use to ask someone to marry you. After a minute of silence, he asked me ' do you want to be my girlfriend, Rose'. I just took a sip of the chardonnay when I heard that sentence I spat it back into my glass. I knew it would happen one day but we only had like four dates I didn't know it would go so fast. After I calmed down he said ' so ?' and I said ' of course I want to be your girlfriend'.

He opened the little box and in that little box, there was a necklace with an infinity sign I loved it. I know it was fast but I liked him we had the same interest and had fun together. After that night we saw each other every day. He worked at a company that was specialized in apps and that kind of stuff. I thought you didn't earn that much money with designing apps and stuff but you do when your dad is the owner of the company of course. A couple of months later we were at his house having a drink he asked me if I wanted to stay over because I couldn't drive back home. I didn't have any clothes with me but he offered me to take some clothes off him to sleep in. I called my mom and said I was staying with Jessica because we had a drink. She didn't know about James because I knew she would want him to come over to get to know him before I slept at his place. I understand that she wants to know him before I would sleep at his place but I tought.. I don't know what I thought. After we had wine and watched some movies I was a little bit drunk, to be honest. I took his clothes and went to the bathroom to change. I walk into the bedroom it's huge! with a big kingsize bed with Black satin covers. I saw James laying in bed watching me as I walk towards the bed. I felt a little bit awkward I've never slept with a boy in the same bed, in his house. I have never done anything with a boy! My first Kiss was with him when he gave me the necklace.  Oké relaxes Rose just go and lay next to him and say goodnight. I'm laying next to him not knowing what to do... I just turned around and said goodnight. Well, he didn't think the same. He puts his arm around my waist and pulls me back towards him. He kissed me and I felt butterflies.  James:' you taste so good' I thought the same but I didn't know how to say it when his tongue is in my mouth. 'Hhmhmm' its the only thing I managed to get out of me. I'm so nervous what if he wants to have sex with me I've never done that before!

Then he asked me: ' i want you so badly, take of Your clothes'. That's when my head was spinning. 

O no!

I haven't told him that I was a virgin. I don't know what to do! Before I realize I said:' I've n.n.ever done it before'. He looks at me but not how he looked at me before my stupid confession. He looks at me with big hungry eyes. ' then we do it nice and slow'. I started to laugh I don't know why maybe the nerves or something. That's when he took off my bra and underwear and started to slide his hand further down. I never felt so good this is what I have missed. Now I know why Jessica was complaining about not having sex in a while this is just heaven. After we had sex he turned around and fell asleep. I took a shower that's what I needed after that experience. I walked back and see James sleeping. I jumped in bed and fell asleep. The next day he was happy and Made me pancakes for breakfast with strawberries. It was a nice relaxed day and in the evening he brought me back home. The next month was just the same thing as always. Work, seeing each other and then back to my house or his house.  My mom knew something was going on because I sleep at Jessica's place 9 out of 10 times. That's when she started asking questions like:' you like Jessica's place huh?' And ' you are so happy since you spend more time with Jessica'. I just answered the questions with Yes mom I'm happy. 

I just didn't want to tell her that I had a boyfriend.  One day I was tired of the comments about me sleeping at Jessica's. So I asked James if he wants to have dinner at my place with my mom so he could get to know her and the other way around. He said: ' of course babe'. I told my mom that Jessica was coming over for dinner that night and she was fine with it. It took hours for me to get ready I have curled my long hair and put on a pink dress that is sexy but not too much. I've put on my boots as always and put on Some makeup.  I heard the bell ring and I run downstairs my mom is yelling ' Rose why are you running you never run'. I opened the door and there he was James. My mom was standing behind me and said: ' so this is the Jessica you were talking about huh?'. I laughed and walked towards the kitchen table, James followed me with my mom. The whole night they laughed and talked they liked each other. The food was amazing it was chicken with Some vegetables with a sweet sauce on it. It's late the time Goes fast when you're having fun. James Thanks my mother for dinner and says goodbye he has to work tomorrow so he has to go home. He walked towards me kissed me and said, goodbye babe. I think it was a little bit weird but oké. I walked back to the kitchen and my mom is sitting at the table smiling from ear to ear. ' What a nice young man you have there Rose'. I never thought she would be so happy about it she was always overprotective of me.

' Yes, mom he is I'm really happy with him'. She laughed at me. ' i can see that! I have to go to bed now I'm tired it was a long day Goodnight!'

'Goodnight mom'.